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This is worse, somehow, than every other goodbye from the past eight years.
Worse, to have all of Ilya now and not be able to touch him.
It’s been two hours since they last kissed and weeks until they’ll get to again and there aren’t enough ‘I love you’s in the world to make this hurt less.
Ilya is just looking at him, glassy-eyed and a little desperate, and Shane’s hands creak on the steering wheel.
“You need to get out of the car before I do something stupid,” he croaks, squeezing his eyes shut against the tears he can already feel welling up.
“Like what?” Ilya asks, voice scratchy and morose.
“Like turn around and drive you back to Montreal with me.” He opens his eyes again, finding Ilya’s gaze across the console. “Or kiss you.”
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In which saying goodbye after the cottage is a lot harder than either of them anticipated.
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Observations on Fatherhood by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-03
From the day Shane is born, David promises to protect him from everything—especially from the kind of love that comes with conditions.
But as Shane grows up talented, visible, and quietly different, David learns that even the safest homes can teach a child how to make himself smaller.
- Part 4 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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Someone’s posted a shaky video from the stands, just behind the whole altercation. It’s close enough to catch the snarl on Rozanov’s face as he charges up the steps. He’s so pretty, Shane thinks faintly. The video starts too late to show what set him off, but it catches the tail end of what the man is yelling, the things he's saying about Shane, before pivoting to calling Rozanov a cunt and bitch and a pussy instead.
Rozanov drops his gloves for Shane. He wishes he could just be grateful, but it feels a little bit like the end of the world.
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and i don't want the world to see me by avocadoestoastyyy
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-02
incredibly whumpy shane hollander subdrops/has an anxiety attack and austistic meltdown after vegas 2014, soft dom ilya rozanov is there to pick up the pieces or: extremely self indulgent hollanov subdrop fic
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“Don’t go,” Ilya manages to choke out, burying his face under Shane’s chin and squeezing his eyes shut. He inhales sharply, pressing his nose deeper into Shane’s throat to breathe in his scent. Right now, it’s Ilya’s body soap, vanilla and spice, masked under salt and skin. He inhales it like it's his own personal supply of air, what he needs to extinguish the burning in his lungs. “Ilya,” Shane says, voice urgent, “you’re shaking, I—your breathing’s too fast—” He tries to pull back, needs to see Ilya’s face, needs to see what’s wrong, but Ilya just shakes his head and clings tighter. “Please don’t go, Shane,” Ilya whispers, pleading. I’m sorry, please don’t go, don’t go— OR: ilya and shane accidentally recreate the tuna-melt day, and ilya realizes just how much old wounds hurt.
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out of your mouth by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-02-01
It's the first game between Ottawa and Montreal since Shane transferred. Montreal's new center is out for blood, and when he manages to get under Shane's skin, Hollander surprises them all.
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Shane stuck his hand out. “Shane Hollander.” He waited for… well, he didn’t know what. A flicker of recognition. Possibly surprise? Delight was perhaps a bit much to hope for, but maybe some kind of excitement about meeting one’s soulmate, the same giddy feeling that was swirling in Shane’s stomach just from standing face to face. Ilya Rozanov gave him nothing. Just glanced between Shane’s face and his hand like Shane had offended him somehow, before finally taking it— —and promptly turning back around to light his cigarette. In which Ilya Rozanov is the name on Shane’s wrist, but Shane Hollander is not on Ilya’s.
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Shane's overstimulation snowballs as they go run errands and Ilya has to catch him before he combusts Set after the Long Game
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the first cut was the deepest (and the next one was a soft touch) by only_the_golden
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-30
A flickering light in the locker room sends Shane into a meltdown after his first game against Montreal since joining Ottawa. Title from "Work Out" by Rainbow Kitten Surprise
- Part 6 of Autistic Shane Hollander One-Shots
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Growing up, their neighbor had a cat.
A beautiful Russian Blue from a long line of show cats, Anastasia after the duchess that Mrs. Petrova was certain her dear kotik was a reincarnation of. Ilya would chirp and miyau at the kartoshka, too round to compete in the cat shows like its mama, if he saw it laying in the sun. But he didn't see it laying still very often.
No, it was much more common to see the beast strutting through the streets with a trophy in its mouth: a small bird, a mouse, a hamster, once the small lizard that he'd been trying to coax into his room as a pet.
"It's how she shows she cares, Illyusha, by showing she can provide for her family."
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Hayden Pike's best friend Shane Hollander is as predictable and reliable as it gets. But when Shane uncharacteristically fights with Scott Hunter, of all people, Hayden needs to know why. As he sits in Shane's living room, waiting for an explanation, things start getting progressively more confusing. Why is Shane coming out to him? And how does Lily play into this? OR Hayden finds out about Lily after Shane and Scott fight on ice. When Hayden throws down gloves to take on a dinosaur, his closest ally is the most unlikely person.
- Part 2 of Hayden Pike Hockey-matic Universe
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your love moves me forward by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-28
“It’s not new,” Shane admits. “The gay part or the relationship part?” “Both?” Hayden’s jaw slowly drops until he’s wearing such a goofy expression that Shane can’t help but laugh again. (Or, Shane gets to come out on his own terms for once.)
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The (Emotional) Crash by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-28
After the almost plane crash, Ilya has to be on for his team. When he gets back home, he's allowed to fall apart.
- Part 7 of Heated Rivalry Oneshots
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“You have no idea who your parents really are, do you?” the Russian asked seriously after a few minutes passed of them staring at one another, though it was really more Shane glaring and heaving while Ilya calmly observed him with an unsure glint in his eye. “I have no idea what I’m doing here and what you want with them. If this is some kind of stupid business dispute, I have bad news for you, asshole. I don't know about their business, I don’t even know what their business is, and I’ve never been involved in their business,” Shane seethed as slowly as he possibly could so Ilya could understand that he genuinely had no idea of what was going on. “Now will you please untie me and take me home? I don’t even care if you knock me out again, just fucking let me go!” Ilya set the glass down to the side of him on the black leather cushion and rose from his seat, unfolding gracefully until he was towering over Shane with cool indifference. He bent slightly, leaned in close enough to Shane’s face that he could smell the vodka the Russian man had been drinking, then said easily, “I think I will keep you, actually.”
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always an angel, never a god by flamesbegin
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-27
“you know what?” shane starts, half terrified, voice filled with bravado he doesn’t yet feel, “there’s a place nearby that makes the best chicken parmesan. i’ve always wanted to take you.” he wants to take the words back as soon as he speaks them, but the smile that blossoms in ilya’s face feels monumental. shane feels his heartbeat quicken, and hopes his face shows a confidence he’s not sure he possesses. or: shane tries to be brave. ilya just loves him.
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how I've lived 'til now, I tell them I don't know by imbihesgay
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-26
Still, there’s something that sticks in his chest about all of this, feeling like somehow, he’s failed. Baby should have turned on her own by now. What is he doing wrong? Everything else about the pregnancy so far has been textbook. He’s done everything right- his diet, his exercise routine, prenatal yoga, Lamaze class, protein shakes, oil massages- Seriously, he's done every single thing the pregnancy books advised him to do. He hasn’t missed a single one. Yet, somehow, he’s failed at this. And this is pretty fucking important. If she’s not head down, he can’t safely deliver her. And if he can’t do that- Christ. Shane exhales again, rubbing his hands deliberately over the aching stretch of skin on his belly. He pushes against her stubborn little foot, low on his side. “Why don’t you wanna flip, little girl?” he asks softly, brows furrowed. “I did the stupid elephant walk and I burned moxa at my feet. I’ve done the stretches, I let your dad massage my belly, I’ve tried everything. What am I doing wrong, hm?” -or, shane is 36wks pregnant with their first baby, and she's being stubborn about flipping head down-
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Ilya Rozanov. One of the star players of the NHL, nearly a decade into his career. Center for the Boston Bears, a brutal, fast player known for womanizers tendencies and his bragging habits.
Kip had learned a lot about hockey in the last three years, unable to swipe past anything to do with Scott’s career. Ilya Rozanov was a difficult player to mistake and it was his distinctive build that stood beside him now, glaring down at the buildings as if they’d personally offended him.
“...Hi.” Kip had to give himself credit. Even with the hesitation, the greeting was clear and strong, pushed past the tightness of his shirt on his shoulders, his collar resting against his throat.
“Hello,” said Rozanov, shifting to cross his arms and lean them against the railing. His suit was near to the navy blue Kip was wearing– a popular color, and he was doubly glad Scott had insisted on it. “Is nice out here. Cold.”
Three times that Ilya supported Scott's relationship and one time he defended his own.
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a hole in his arms where the world used to be by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-26
“There’s information coming out that the Centaur’s plane crashed on its way to Tampa.”
The entire world tilts on its axis.
For a moment Shane feels like he’s being burned alive, and then in an instant it’s just bitter cold; there’s ice in his veins, his lungs, his heart. God, his heart. Is it still beating? He can’t tell. Surely not. Surely, if Ilya were - if he were gone, then Shane’s heart would have fallen still. There would be nothing left for it to beat for.
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Ryan is having a bad moment when he realizes his sister's flight is delayed, then Chiron alerts on him.
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The Second First Time by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-26
Shane Hollander wakes up in a hospital room convinced it’s 2016 — and that Ilya Rozanov is still his biggest rival, someone he’s supposed to hate.
But the world has changed. It’s 2025. They play for the same team, live in the same house, and Ilya Rozanov is wearing a wedding ring.
Now Shane has to relive nine lost years, learn to trust his ‘enemy,’ and find out whether he can fall in love with his own husband all over again.- Part 1 of Again, and Always
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