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  1. dream of walls that hold us in prison by

    Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-05-12

    Two weeks after the photos get leaked, Troy is traded to the Ottawa Centaurs.

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    1/4
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    1
    AO3:
    #84704766

  2. is just ten year plan to fuck by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-05-06

    Shane fucking Hollander. Hockey’s Golden Boy. Long-time crush of Ilya Rozanov. Long, looooong time. A decade of being a fucking simp for this man. God, he was in trouble.

    It should be pretty much illegal to go from their only contact being at face-off across the ice, to suddenly hosting Shane in his exclusive club—during a fucking event, no less. Ilya’s event.

    He would never admit it, but he’s been stealthily trying to get Hollander to show up at his club for years now. Hell, Shane was the whole reason he invested in the club in the first place. Bought a fucking house here. Maybe that was an insane thing to do, but he didn’t care. Ilya was insane. Insane for Shane.

    Language:
    English
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    354,905
    Chapters:
    26/26
    Files:
    3 versions
    AO3:
    #80376461

  3. Eric Young has a Crush (But He Would Never Call it That) by

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    2026-05-04

    5 times that Eric fell for Luca (kinda) (even if he didn't realize it) + the 1 time he realized he needed to do something about it.

    ...and maybe a bonus chapter of him coming out to Bood and Cassie

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    23,241
    Chapters:
    7/7
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82759936

  4. The To-Don't List by

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    2026-05-02

    He’d been telling himself for years now, this time would be the last time. That after this time, he would finally have enough to sustain him, enough to manage. They should not be doing this. He should not be doing this. He should not even want to be doing this.

    Still no text.

    This thing with Rozanov had been going on long enough. Shane hadn't been able to put a stop to it yet, but maybe he could try a new approach. He could write a list: "why this has to be the last time".

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    Chapters:
    3/3
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #84067551

  5. A Long, Flowy, Butter-Yellow Skirt by

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    2026-05-01

    Shane, occasionally, likes to wear skirts around the house. This is mostly fine with him, but it's also a huge secret.

    During their first summer together at the cottage, Ilya goes rummaging around in the wrong drawer.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #84038636

  6. put my hand on the stove (and the cross) by

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    2026-04-28

    And there.

    Through a break in the trees, there is a house. Wooden, old, the pale white paint of it greyed with age and dampness.

    "I—" His voice comes out level, at least.

    The man has tilted his head. "What? You want to sleep in your car?" He pulls his chin toward the dark interior of the house, a small gesture. "No. Come in. Is no trouble."

    God hasn’t abandoned him yet, ha.

    Shane Hollander's car breaks down in the middle of nowhere. The man who answers the door is charming, warm, and just his type. Ilya Rozanov is a very religious man. He has a lot to say about repentance.

    Language:
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    13,114
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83883236

  7. Who is ‘Jane’? by

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    2026-04-26

    Jane joins the Centaurs WAG Group Chat...

    What could go wrong??

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    6,693
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83652796

  8. Hockey Statistics of the Early 20th Century by

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    2026-04-25

    Shane Hollander wins the Stanley Cup in a completely successful ploy to stop thinking about Ilya Rozanov.

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    8,660
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83715976

  9. Once More Around the Sun by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-04-23

    After Shane walks out post-tuna melt, Ilya Rozanov walks through hell to remind himself who he is, a man ready to salt the fucking Earth for his people.

    Shane’s not even pretending he’s capable of being rational about it, he isn’t, his world is falling apart at the seams and he’s fairly sure he’s losing his mind.

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    33,533
    Chapters:
    9/?
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #80301421

  10. eleven out of ten by

    Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-04-23

    Shane: You know, believe it or not, eating women out actually wasn't my favorite pastime Ilya: Sure. Shane: Ilya. I’m GAY Ilya: Not too gay to eat lots of pussy In which the women Shane has slept with share their experiences on social media, Shane and Ilya both react totally normally, and Hayden would like some clarity on his best friend's sex life A sequel to "ten out of ten"

    Language:
    English
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    12,353
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    3 versions
    AO3:
    #83557496

  11. Rules For Picking by

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    2026-04-20

    “When we play Boston…” The first star had gone to Shane or Rozanov all four games this season, despite them playing on the second line for three of them, but that couldn’t always be the case, and if the excited rumblings of teammates in the Metros locker room about “putting that bitch Rozanov in his place” were mirrored on the Raider’s side—Rozanov’s snort cut through the thought.

    “Then you are mine. Easy.”

    Shane's not freaking out about The Winner's Room

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83496881

  12. User Discretion is Advised by

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    2026-04-20

    His throat felt thick and Scott coughed to hide the hitch in his breathing. "I’m not ashamed of who I am. I love Kip. I've won a Stanley Cup and made history as the first out MLH player. I think we could win the cup again this year, or at least make it through a couple rounds of the playoffs because our team is incredible. So fucking what I’m inconvenienced by showering last? It’s worth it."

    --

    Being first means being palatable. Scott can be palatable.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83448776

  13. keep a place for me by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-04-19

    From across the rink, Shane watches Ilya get punched in the face. He keeps a distance from the mess playing out. He knows better than to go over and make it worse. He would be more worried about it if Ilya wasn’t laughing with blood running down his face as one of his teammates drags him away. He’s yelling at the player that punched him, and Shane is grateful he can’t hear what he’s saying because he knows it’s obscene. “Your boy is feral tonight,” Pike says to Shane. Shane groans. “He's not my boy.” When Shane is in junior high, Ilya's family moves to Canada. Instead of meeting as adults, they grow up together. Shane learns Russian and Ilya spends a majority of his time at the Hollander household. When they start their professional hockey careers, they have to learn how to be opponents instead of teammates, but also how to be apart for the first time in their lives. When Ilya suggests that they sleep together, Shane has to balance their friendship and their casual relationship.

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    Chapters:
    3/3
    Files:
    2 versions
    AO3:
    #80253536

  14. Limitations of the Current Model by

    Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-04-19

    Shane Hollander has been eating the same way for eight years. He has a framework. It has a name, research behind it, years of evidence in his performance numbers. He made an appointment because he is a professional, and professionals address things when they become inefficiencies.
    That is what he tells himself. He is very good at this, and ultimately Ilya is wrong. He does not have a problem.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83383111

  15. i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) by

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    2026-04-18

    Hollander’s eyes slid past him, stopped, came back and held, his eyes widening. Ilya smiled, a mocking curve of his mouth, and raised his cup in acknowledgment. Number one, he mouthed, and while he couldn’t be certain in the dim light of the bar, he thought he saw Hollander flush.

    Then his chin lifted, challenging, and Ilya felt something hook behind his ribs, a sharp tug, like a fish on a line.

     

    Or: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander make a deal - whichever of them debuts as a #1 NYT bestseller owes the other a blowjob

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    47,370
    Chapters:
    16/16
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82555806

  16. This Wasn't the Beginning I Pictured (but I think it's working for me) by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-04-16

    What if Ilya had stayed for round two the night of their first hook up, only to fall asleep there and be discovered by Yuna Hollander the next morning?

    OR: Shane gets a version of the “Rose tells him he’s gay” conversation at 19 instead of 25, and it comes from his mother.

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    2,158
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    1/1
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    1
    AO3:
    #83246176

  17. I Keep You Safe by

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    2026-04-16

    How did he let this happen?

    Shane's not sure.

    One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's gorgeous sweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...

    Well.

    Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.

     

    Or

    Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.

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    40,018
    Chapters:
    25/25
    Files:
    2 versions
    AO3:
    #78806701

  18. Marleau, you motherfucker! by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-04-16

    Because Pike had shouted, “Marleau, you motherfucker!” and the rage embedded itself on Cliff’s skin.

    or: the one where Cliff gets his soulmate mark in 2017, and it's a long fucking time until everything is going to be okay.

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    Chapters:
    2/2
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82563516

  19. violent ends with friends that go by

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    2026-04-15

    Whatever this thing with Marleau is, Hayden’s prepared to ignore it. It doesn’t mean anything. It can’t mean anything, because Hayden isn’t gay.

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    1/?
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #83197641

  20. Let's Meet the Families by

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    2026-04-15

    A few months after winning the Stanley Cup, Jackie, Cliff, and Hayden are attempting to integrate their lives. It's as tricky as it is wonderful.

    It's time for the next step: meeting each other's families.

    Sequel to The Impossible Scenario.

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    English
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    19,492
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82234506
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