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This Kid is Going to Ruin My Life by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-25
Starting before then running concurrently with the events of Mr. Answer Man, this is Scott's perspective on the first three years of Shane and Ilya's growing relationship. You do not need to have read Mr. Answer Man to understand this (I hope!) but I recommend it.
Scott Hunter is 25 years old, Captain of the New York Admirals, and privately, achingly, gay. He meets Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov at the 2009 MLH draft day, and everyone involved immediately gets several wrong ideas. For the next three years, Scott has to navigate his place as a closeted gay man in the spotlight of major league hockey, while trying to protect an oblivious baby queer from an obviously straight Russian menace who can't seem to stay away.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 25,015
- Chapters:
- 6/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92861061
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The Wrong Kind of Sleeping In by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-21
Eric Bennett loved him, all day, every day, and he showed it in a million tiny ways.
- Part 1 of Mornings
- Part 17 of Incremental Gains
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,268
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #95153041
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Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.
Or, hopefully, her son.
“Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”
Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.
(how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 113,156
- Chapters:
- 10/?
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #87705801
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one day i'll watch as you're leaving (and life will lose all its meaning) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-13
The fight on Boxing Day had been explosive and painful. But they'd decided they would make a new plan. One they could both live with.
But the more Shane tried to compromise, all the years of resentment and hiding crowded in at once. He spat an ultimatum across the table. Six months. A year at the absolute most. Or they were done.
“That’s not enough time. A year is… tough, but maybe,” Shane offered carefully. “Eighteen months?”
Ilya’s temper flared.
“I do not want to wait another eighteen fucking months!” The words echoed through the room. “I want to be like Hunter! Go on dates with my boyfriend. Talk about him to people. Not always feel like some awful, shameful secret.”
“You want to talk to people about me?” he asked quietly. His voice sounded so small and fragile and confused. But Ilya was still furious and raw.
“Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”
As the words left his mouth, he knew he'd gone too far.
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What if the Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum.- Part 3 of hollanov longfics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 82,465
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #80606411
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you were a vision in the morning (when the light came through) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-13
Shane Hollander says Ilya Rozanov's name out loud the first time they meet, and Ilya's world bursts into color.
The stars demand Shane and Ilya be together, and so they will be :).
- Part 1 of saturated sunrise: soulmates au
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 55,653
- Chapters:
- 37/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79263261
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Steady Ground by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-11
The events of week five of Ilya attending his mandated Queer Studies course.
Ilya nearly gets caught texting his queer studies professor in the locker room, befriends Sandra’s girlfriend and learns some new and very relevant terminology.
Or, what happens when you’re in love with Rose Landry’s ex-boyfriend and someone explains to you the concept of compulsory heterosexuality.
- Part 2 of Queer Studies 101
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,693
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92416111
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Number 5704 by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-05
Scott spent twenty years alone, so he should be used to it by now.
- Language:
- English
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- 10,909
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91252386
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The MLH decided to sponsor a week-long summer event for new players and up-and-coming prospects that they were calling the MLH All-Stars Summer Exhibition. And in the inaugural cohort, in addition to many talented prospects and players new to the league? Rookie of the Year Shane Hollander and runner up Ilya Rozanov.
OR
After their rookie season, Shane and Ilya have to share a room in Arizona. For a week.
- Part 1 of Exhibition
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 75,436
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86111806
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Shane gets approximately ten minutes of feeling blissful and content after Ilya Rozanov leaves his apartment-
-and then he has to bolt to the bathroom to get ill with a violence he hasn’t experienced since he was still conditioning for the season as a rookie.
In the aftermath, he runs a cold washcloth over his face while swishing his mouth out and tries to convince himself that it had to have just been something he ate.
He wonders if he should text Rozanov and give him a warning, but having to send a, “Thanks for taking my virginity, by the way I just puked my guts up and you might have caught whatever this is from me” doesn’t really seem like it’s a very sexy follow-up text to get from someone. As a “congrats on getting fucked” present to himself in honor of the occasion, he decides he’ll chalk it up to the sudden release of nerves and only send the text if it lasts past the night.
(shane is EXTREMELY sensitive to nicotine) (the problem with this? he isn't actually aware of it and thus doesn't understand why fucking ilya rozanov sometimes makes him sick afterwards)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 16,723
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89127991
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hold me tight (or don’t) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-12
Lily: Sorry, I didn’t get to say goodbye
Shane had found the message sweet despite his disappointment. Now it just feels… ominous.
That’s usually the point when Shane has to get out of bed and pace around his bedroom and remind himself that, if Ilya is ghosting him (he is not, he’s not, he’s not), then he is also ghosting the rest of the fucking world. Because that is the thing that truly, really, terrifies him.
No one has heard of Ilya Rozanov in nearly three weeks.
Shane hasn’t been getting much sleep lately.
Or:
After Tampa. Things between Shane and Ilya are finally starting to look stable… until Ilya drops off the face of the Earth with little warning. Shane spirals (a lot) and decides he’s going to find his man if it’s the last thing he does.
- Language:
- English
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- 43,222
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85137311
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“Uh,” he says, looking up from his screen and feeling his ears go hot, realizing for the first time that this habit of his hasn’t actually come up before until this exact moment.
“What?” Rozanov asks, sounding more amused than anything else. “You are one of the people who does Instagram for food now?”
“No,” Shane says, stalling between answering and finishing his Snap so he can send it to Melissa, “one sec.” He finishes typing out 'Tuna melt. Chips. Pickles. It smells really good. Swiss cheese, I think.' before he looks back to Rozanov, putting his phone facedown on the coffee table. “Just sending it to someone on the staff. She likes knowing what I’m eating.”
He doesn’t know if Melissa likes knowing what he’s eating, per se, but she also seems pleased when he talks about enjoying food for things beyond how many grams of protein it has in it.
“Ah,” Rozanov says, in a tone Shane can’t quite read. “You always send her your food then, this girl?”
(shane has a habit of sending his team's dietitian his meals for approval) (the problem with this habit? he forgets to tell ilya exactly what it is that melissa does) (how the tuna meltdown is AVERTED through the power of miscommunication)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 19,481
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #87642311
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Title inspired by the lyric in Season 2 Weight Loss by Harry Styles. Post inspired by a prompt I saw on Twitter from @mcgee_lives. "Tuna melt scene, but it's Shane that whispers Ilya's name, Ilya freaks out and makes Shane leave. Few months later, he's seen dating a model (if she looks like Shane, that's between Ilya and God). They date a little over a year, maybe. Ilya breaks up with her after he hears rumors of Shane dating a man."
May deviate a bit from the prompt. This is my first time ever writing/publishing a fic but the prompt was too fun not to try. Criticism is welcome as long as it won't make me cry!
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 44,845
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81580211
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The first thing that people notice when they look at Ilya is the way that the word disappointment carves itself in jagged, angry letters along his jawline. This is not the worst mark he bears—it’s just the most visible.
(In which the most hurtful things your soulmate has thought about themself appear as words cut into your body. Shane and Ilya find reasons to love each other anyway.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 19,851
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86505621
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For Our Family by Shunkan_Romantica
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-05
Shane was in the last weeks of his pregnancy. He only wanted to spend a couple of days in the cottage alone with Ilya, just the two of them before the baby arrived. Everything would be alright. Nothing could go wrong, could it? They had been so naive. Everything that could have gone wrong did go wrong, putting them through one of the scariest situations of their lives.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,603
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77956846
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Shane Hollander writes romance novels. Ilya Rozanov finds out.
- Part 10 of Hollanov fics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,973
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85178121
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“You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.
Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-
“Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.
Ilya stares at him.
(the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,217
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84871821
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J.J. reminded himself every morning to be thankful. To be thankful for life, to be thankful for being a successful defensive man on a successful hockey team, to be thankful for his family and most importantly - to be thankful for the brothers he accumulated by playing the sport that he loves. However, in this continuous basking of thankfulness and gratitude, J.J. has sometimes found himself feeling empty. He was told many times that he was a complex puzzle, full of excitement and whimsy but very hard to put together. On many days, he felt completed; all the pieces matching together - creating a picture of beauty, wonder, and sometimes grace. But there were plenty days where he felt the piece or pieces were missing. He sought day in and day out to figure that out.
or the J.J. looks for the missing piece and finds it in Carter Vaughn.
- Part 2 of Shane and Dem Boyz
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,552
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80046161
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“Just-” Ilya starts, intending to tease, the offer of a massage more about getting Hollander back in a more relaxed headspace than anything else, but then the wire-tight tension in the muscles under his fingers registers, and he frowns, pressing testingly before making a noise of disapproval. “Fuck, Hollander, you are secretly doing crime or what?”
“What?” Hollander asks, confused, starting to lift his head before Ilya pushes it back down absently, focused now on feeling out the knots Hollander seems to be completely made of. He’s felt tension in Hollander’s shoulders before, usually during coaxing little squeezes while coaching him through learning how to deep throat, but he’s always written it off as nerves from learning something new.
Now he wonders if Hollander is just nerves, period.
(the "ilya massages shane" fic inspired by hudson saying that playing shane made him sore because he was so tense all the time)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,123
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83497251
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cross your thoughtless heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-08
“Is that it?” Ilya ask dryly at the exact same time.
“Are you fucking kidding me, Rozanov?” Shane snaps, still feeling his heart in his ears. “Is that not bad enough for you?!”
“Some people burn dolls, some people shoot them,” he has the gall to shrug. “I get threats like that all the time. No big deal.”
“Yeah, well, I get them too, asshole, so I know this isn’t normal. It is a big deal.”
Or:
In the middle of a Montreal vs Boston game a threat against Ilya Rozanov becomes a security concern… and Shane Hollander kinda loses it. Just a little. In his defense, he’s pretty justified to be worried, okay? He is NOT overreacting.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 19,887
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #82218526
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He gnaws at the guilt of his own actions the way Anya does her chew toys for days after, Shane clearly picking up on something going on with him but also giving him space to work it over in his head until he’s ready to share.
Right up until they’re out at team dinner and the two other smokers at the table excuse themselves for a smoke outside and Shane looks to him expectantly-
-only to frown when Ilya stays where he is.
(how and why ilya finally gives up smoking)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,365
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82632866