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The Many Reactions of Shane Hollander by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-10
(to The Many Plans of J.J. Boiziau)
So J.J. had figured out that Shane’s secret boyfriend was Ilya after less than twelve hours of even knowing that he had a secret boyfriend. And it had been… fine? His reaction hadn’t been at all what Shane had expected. He still couldn’t quite wrap his head around it.
But one problem at a time. He was sure that he was a bad boyfriend to Ilya, no matter what J.J. had said, and he needed to find a way to fix it.
Or, some moments from Shane’s POV that J.J. wasn’t present for.
- Part 3 of The Queer Hockey Agenda
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,828
- Chapters:
- 3/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84429951
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Getting information out of Ilya about his family was like getting blood from stone. Maybe harder. It had been one of the first things Shane had noticed about him. Any questions about his parents – the kind of typical things Shane’s mom had taught him to ask to make polite conversations – would result in brusque, emotionless answers or, worse, actual anger.
But somewhere out there was Irina’s granddaughter. The only remaining blood relative that Ilya gave a shit about.
And Ilya could never go back, which was Shane’s fault.
So that bothered him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,356
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82993631
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“Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.”
April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.
Ilya goes through with ending it.
Shane lets him.
What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.
They learn how to live without each other.
(Or at least, how to pretend.)
And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.
And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 26,126
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #83638766
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He’s just about ready to doze off—his ritualistic pre-dinner, thirty-minute nap—when, suddenly, Ilya says, “Huh. Interesting.”
Shane cracks one eye open. “Hmm?”
“Oh, nothing, малыш,” he replies, though his brows are furrowed when he says it. Shane’s even more curious now.
“No, really, what is it?”
Ilya must lose some internal debate; a deep sigh leaves his body before, wordlessly, he turns his phone to Shane.
The bright light makes him squint, still not used to Ilya and his affinity for both using the light-mode feature and turning the brightness in his phone to a maximum. He forgoes scolding him when, after his eyes have adjusted, he reads: Metros acquires Fil-Canadian Rivera; second Asian player in franchise history after Hollander.
At first he thinks, oh, that’s my name. Shane hasn’t seen his name mentioned remotely near the words ‘Montreal Metros’ ever since he transferred to Ottawa three years ago. Then, and this is when it finally dawns on him, Shane thinks: second?
- Part 5 of a collection of hollanovs
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 9,610
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84494811
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“You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.
“I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”
He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.
When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.
(the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)
(or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 23,094
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84454861
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Going Broke and Broken by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-08
In January 2017, the Montreal Voyageurs ceased to exist. The owner and GM vanished after embezzling $600 million into a crypto scheme, forcing the franchise into federal bankruptcy and immediate dissolution. Contracts were voided overnight. Shane hadn’t spoken to Ilya since the tuna melt incident. Now, with no team, Shane could end up anywhere, on opposite sides of the country, or in the same locker room as Ilya.
Fic inspired by Halt and Catch Fire by mashawisotsky
- Part 3 of Inspired By... Hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,558
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #82698176
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sem'ya by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime)
2026-05-08
Ilya doesn't go into their game against Philly intending to hate Gritty, contrary to Shane's assumptions. He has it all worked out. It's just going to be a fun little bit that he does. Gritty has a menacing energy that should vibe well with Ilya's everything.
In their second year as captains of the Nordiques, Shane and Ilya have more challenges to face, including a team that is now aware of them as a couple, anxious new additions, flirtatious mascots, and a hockey world that is finally responding to change...
Direct sequel to domoy, wherein Shane and Ilya go to the Quebec Nordiques in this AU’s expansion draft and come out to the world, and Yuri, Yuuri, and Viktor move to Canada.
- Part 3 of in all but name
- Part 5 of crackin' open a cold one
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 35,000
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83863746
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I love you through everything by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-07
Ilya sat up a little straighter and scoffed, “Yes yes. Mr. FBI man thought I was big Russian assassin. I tried to tell him business man life was not that exciting. Not everyone that goes to military school is hit man like in movies.” He rolled his eyes as Scott continued.
or
There's a hit man on the loose. Shane is a government agent, Hayden and Scott work at the FBI. Will they be able to find who ever is responsible for multiple murders?
Title - I love you through everything. I'm not actually the biggest Drake fan, but this line in Jungle seemed appropriate for this.
One of my lovely readers was inspired to draw me a cover art for this fic. I'm so happy they loved it enough and wanted everyone to see it. You can see the original link here Thank you again to wiccawicca!!!
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 464,919
- Chapters:
- 66/66
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80088966
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Far Longer Than Forever by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-06
After years of spending summers detesting each other, Prince Shane Hollander and Tsarevich Ilya Rozanov were ready to never see each other again.
But as the two laid eyes on each other on the year of their 18th birthdays, something changed, and hatred turning into something far more precious and fragile.
But it would not be long lived, as other forces at work plotted to tear them apart.
Aka a retelling of The Swan Princess (1994) but I turn Shane into a loon.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,978
- Chapters:
- 1/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84391441
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Grin and Bear It by Giveemhale
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-06
Ilya tries to get Shane to be friends with Troy. It goes horribly. AKA Shane crashes out at Troy Chap 2: Shane and Rose talk about fame and rage
- Part 1 of The Darker Side of Hockey
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 9,176
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #83891141
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Eric Young has a Crush (But He Would Never Call it That) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-04
5 times that Eric fell for Luca (kinda) (even if he didn't realize it) + the 1 time he realized he needed to do something about it.
...and maybe a bonus chapter of him coming out to Bood and Cassie
- Part 4 of Growing Outward Series
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 23,241
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82759936
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The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.
Shane is on board.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 144,038
- Chapters:
- 17/17
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79156231
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He’s about to unlock the door when his phone buzzes, no doubt with an apology or an explanation. Someone screams outside of the bathroom. There’s a loud noise. More screams. What the-
His phone buzzes again.
Jane: don’t come out
Jane: hide
Jane: guns
Jane: idk what’s happening
Jane: call the cops
Or
Shane, Ilya, Scott Hunter and a bunch of MHL players find themselves in a hostage situation in the middle of the Las Vegas award ceremony. (Mid-situationship, the year pre-tuna melt).
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 29,722
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 6 versions
- AO3:
- #83076471
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He’d been telling himself for years now, this time would be the last time. That after this time, he would finally have enough to sustain him, enough to manage. They should not be doing this. He should not be doing this. He should not even want to be doing this.
Still no text.
This thing with Rozanov had been going on long enough. Shane hadn't been able to put a stop to it yet, but maybe he could try a new approach. He could write a list: "why this has to be the last time".
- Part 5 of SnailyMaily HR fics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,346
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84067551
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If This Is It... by S_D_Blackthorn
Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (Book), The Long Game (Book)
2026-05-01
When a petty morning argument is the last thing Ilya says to Shane before he boards the Montreal Metros’ team plane, he thinks the worst consequence will be a bruised ego and an awkward apology. Instead, the aircraft declares an emergency. As social media explodes, the hockey world halts, and Shane’s Instagram messages turn from apologies to goodbyes, Ilya is forced to confront the one truth he’s been hiding longer than his feelings: Shane Hollander is his. And he may have just lost him. A mixed-media, Long Game–era angst spiral featuring breaking news alerts, trending fan edits, locker room confessions, and the most devastating Instagram DM thread you will ever read.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 125,080
- Chapters:
- 30/30
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80245286
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“Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”
Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.
Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.
“I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.
The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.
He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.
(shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,140
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84048936
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All year Shane had been fighting the desperate creeping desires spreading inside him, hoping they would wither and die in the airless forgotten dark of his dreams and now Rozanov, the only player at camp who might've been better at hockey than Shane, with his newly-long legs and newly-defined abs and his indifferent smirking gaze, was lying (maybe) hard above him, asking wildly inappropriate questions and claiming it was all normal and fine and good? Nonsense. If this was normal, Shane was missing way more social cues in his day-to-day life than he thought.
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In which Shane and Ilya meet at hockey camp as teens and a bunch of other things also go differently. Not a teen fic tho I promise!- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 89,699
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 5 versions
- AO3:
- #80334051
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The Centaurs had already been through one plane emergency. What are the chances of them being in another?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 25,785
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80123401
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Wolfbird by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-27
Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.
Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 180,137
- Chapters:
- 14/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75354806
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domoy by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime)
2026-04-25
June 2016
Shane hefts the Stanley Cup over his head for a second time, a numb joy settling over him.
The partners and families of the Voyageurs flood down to the ice in a rush. His parents have come down, visibly proud.
And yet this year, it somehow feels a little worse, because Ilya wasn't next to them, cheering in a HOLLANDER jersey.
After coming out as friends and revealing the figure skating rivalry in their families, Shane and Ilya must face the challenges of the coming years, while Yuuri and Yuri face dilemmas of their own...
In which I ask the question: What if Shane and Ilya went to the Quebec Nordiques?
A direct sequel to brátishka, featuring social media, texting, emails, and a whole lot of canon divergence.
Extras start in Chapter 14!
- Part 4 of crackin' open a cold one
- Part 2 of in all but name
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 60,000
- Chapters:
- 14/14
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82889321