81 – 100 of 228 Works in Panic Attacks
- Panic Attacks ×
-
How Did We Let This Happen? by LoveSimonFicWriter
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-08
Shane is upset with himself for potentially ruining what little time he and Ilya have together at the cottage, before the launch of the Game Changers camp, due to some stomach bug he can't seem to get rid of. ______ Or a year after the first summer at the cottage, Shane is spiraling once again, due to finding out he's unexpectedly pregnant. COMPLETED! 3.8.26
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,780
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78763256
-
Scott Hunter sees himself in Shane Hollander. Many years later, he sees Shane Hollander outed publicly on the internet.
- Part 4 of scott hunter fics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,094
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80795636
-
if you ever try to leave me again by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-04
Shane heard a strangled shout tear free from his mouth, and then his body was moving without his brain’s input. He flew across the ice, ripping his gloves off and reaching for Ilya’s throat. He wrapped his fingers around the warm skin, feeling the flow of blood pulse harder with each beat of Ilya’s heart. His eyes raced across Ilya’s face, desperately looking for a sign that his boyfriend was still with him. Ilya’s eyes were wide and glazed, staring past Shane instead of at him. His face was losing color rapidly, turning a sickly shade of white that mirrored the ice beneath him. His mouth was open, loose and slack, mouthguard still jammed into his upper jaw. Shane watched in terror as Ilya grew limper in his arms.
——————————————————
During a Boston-Montreal game, Ilya's neck is cut by a skate, and Shane is forced to witness the love of his life bleeding out on the ice in front of him. All of the plans they have made seem to be slipping away before his eyes, right when they were so close to finalizing Ilya's transfer to Ottawa. As they race against the clock to save Ilya's life, Shane reckons with the secrets they have been forced to keep and fears that they might never get to live their truth out in the open.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 56,772
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78629256
-
Before It Gets Too Loud by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-27
Ilya realized that he had two choices, and neither of them was very good. He could let his teammates believe he was a controlling asshole of a husband, or he could talk to them about things that Shane would probably prefer to keep to himself. He knew how private his husband was, how much time he’d spent cultivating a very particular image of himself to the world. An image of himself that only Ilya and a few other people were ever able to see behind.
or
Wyatt Hayes and the rest of the Ottawa Centaurs find out that Shane Hollander isn’t exactly what they’d imagined.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,429
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80316976
-
Trending: J.A.N.E.I.F.Y.'s New Song Just Dropped And We're All Asking by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-27
Shane loves his husband. He really does! But sometimes, it can be hard to put that love into words.
So maybe, when he tried to put it into words, he ended up writing a couple songs.
And maybe he released them under a fake name.
And maybe they got insanely popular somehow.
-
AKA the one where Shane and Ilya are married and in love and Shane is a little insecure about his ability to love his husband. So he becomes a faceless pop sensation. By accident. Mostly? It's complicated.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,678
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79317361
-
Shane’s hearing is muffled, sound bubbling in and out like he’s swimming through the lake, dipping under the surface and back into the air. He can make out a word here and there, enough to know that Rozanov is trying to get him to breathe with him. He can feel the expansion of Rozanov’s lungs against his hands as he takes deep breaths in and lets them out. Shane tries to copy him, he does, but every inhale carries the scent of him, his cologne, his skin, his hair products. The scents are so familiar to him, and he wants more than anything for them to calm him, make him feel safe, but they are doing the opposite. Why are they still so familiar to him after not being anywhere near Rozanov for half a year? Why does he still want to shove his face against Rozanov’s throat and suck in every last last hint he can get? - Ilya takes longer to arrive in the bathroom after they present the award together, leaving Shane time to sink into a full-blown panic attack. This leads to a very different night in Vegas and an earlier beginning to Shane and Ilya’s relationship.
- Part 1 of Vegas Canon Divergence AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,829
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80128216
-
when a panic attack brings Shane to his knees during a heated Montreal–Boston matchup, the only name he can say is Ilya’s. In front of a stunned arena, Ilya chooses love over rivalry, crossing the ice to hold him and accidentally revealing the secret relationship they can no longer hide.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,129
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80055411
-
say whatever you feel (be wherever you are) by minnieishere
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-22
Ilya shifted him gently, until Shane was half across his chest, head tucked under Ilya’s chin. The steady thump of his heartbeat under his ear was a metronome for Shane’s still unsteady rhythm. Shane let his eyes close. The thrumming in his chest was still there, quieter now but never totally gone. But recognising he wasn’t alone, that Ilya would never leave him alone steeled his nerves. or five times Shane Hollander needs a little support, and one time Ilya Rozanov does too.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,966
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80023491
-
Shane Hollander is struggling to make ends meet. After his best friend Hayden sets up a dating profile for him on a sugar baby website, he learns that there are some men who will pay for anything - even companionship. ** EPILOGUE ADDED 02/20/26 **
- Part 5 of Hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,935
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #75530036
-
Twelve hours, Shane reminds himself. Twelve hours, and then he can come home and sleep for as long as he needs with nobody to disturb him. He can do this. --- Or, Shane gets sick and thinks he can hide it. Ilya sees right through him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,852
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79976646
-
Spending time with the Hollanders dredges up memories Ilya would rather remain buried.
- Part 21 of [challenge] Heated Rivalry Febuwhump 2026
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,394
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79671336
-
Shane swallowed hard, tears still slipping down his face, but he managed another breath. Then another. Each one shaky. Each one fragile. But they were coming. Ilya kept his hand steady against his back, the other still lightly holding his forearm. “You’re okay,” he repeated quietly. “I’m right here.” Shane’s voice came out broken and small. “I'm sorry. I couldn’t- I tried- I needed-” His words dissolved into another shaky inhale, frustration and shame mixing with the remnants of panic. Ilya didn’t press him to explain. He knew Shane’s mind was still tangled in whatever storm had triggered this. Right now, breathing mattered more than understanding. “You don’t have to say anything,” he said softly. “Just breathe.” --- The pressure gets to Shane and he has an anxiety attack mid-game.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,187
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79927841
-
“I have a secret,” Ilya whispers.
Half-awake, Shane blinks at him sleepily. “What is it?”
“I cannot say.” Ilya’s eyes flicker between Shane’s. “But this secret, it is why things are complicated. It is why I didn’t go to Russia when my father died.”
OR: a rewrite of Heated Rivalry, with a twist.
- Part 7 of cjo + hr
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 47,857
- Chapters:
- 4/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78768181
-
a moonbeam in your hand by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-19
"We have newest member of the team with us today, as you all have seen.”
Shane glanced up again, watching as the captain gestured vaguely toward Shane without looking at him. “Shane Hollander.” The name came out of his mouth like it was laced with poison.
Shane became very aware of many eyes turning to him now. He felt a few claps on the back and tried to force a tight smile. But his eyes wandered back up to Ilya Rozanov, who was looking at him with so much quiet contempt, that Shane started to understand the phrase ‘if looks could kill.’
/
OR: Ilya spirals into a deep depression when Shane breaks things off with him definitively after a horrifying run in with their feelings (and tuna melts).
They go no contact for close to a year until Shane is unexpectedly traded to Boston the following season.
Shane finds his new captain is a version of Ilya he's never seen before: dark, icy, and distant.
But their newfound proximity mixed with old feelings creates a complicated dynamic that they can't ignore forever.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,313
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78494131
-
Not According to Plan by ilyarozanovsmole (daniiireads)
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-17
While spending the summer in Russia, Ilya learns that Shane has mysteriously retired from the NHL. When he attempts to call, Shane’s phone goes straight to voicemail… Or the one where Shane finds out he’s pregnant, retires and goes ghost, but underestimates just how much Ilya Rozanov loves him
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,953
- Chapters:
- 14/14
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78846316
-
Shane’s mind was fuzzy. The scratching of skates and the roar of the crowd overwhelmed him, distracted him. His head felt heavy, laden with sounds, not enough space to focus on the game. It felt as if his brain had fogged over suddenly, stopping him from thinking about anything other than how loud everything was. Shane felt his brain pulling him back, pulling him away from the game, drawing him into himself. A pressure built up behind his eyes and it was all he could do to not tip forward with the weight, feeling the heaviness of his brain. “-ander?”
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,825
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79612171
-
mess by casdoms (moffwithhishead)
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-14
Fuck. He can’t do this now. He pinches his thigh in an effort to redirect his thoughts from spiraling, but it doesn’t help. The additional guilt of not wanting to make it about himself seems to tip him over the edge and - fucking, ugh.
- Part 6 of heated rivalry but shane is more audhd
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,931
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79529291
-
5 times Shane doesn't come out to his parents +1 time he has to
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,044
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79478961
-
Shane’s nightmare is something happening to his hands. Watching a Boston game on TV, he learns that there’s worse layers to that fear.
- Part 11 of [challenge] Heated Rivalry Febuwhump 2026
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,389
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79089591
-
all secrets sleep in winter clothes by weeb_grass
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-11
“I can’t—” Shane tries to speak through the hysteria, but he gets caught trying to suck in a sharp breath. “I ca—” Hayden brings the phone back to his own ear. “He can’t hear you, man, he’s freaking out.” There’s shuffling on Rozanov’s end, then, very distinctly, he says, “Put me on speakerphone.” Or: Shane finds out about the plane malfunction just a tad too late. Featuring: breakdowns in the locker room, Ilya's love put on blast, and Comeau being the canonical dick we all know him to be.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 4,827
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79328486