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Ilya's face split into a wide grin. It made his eyes sparkle. Shane wanted to kiss him very badly. "Oh. Oh. You are very drunk." "I wouldn't say very drunk. I'm normal drunk." Shane corrected, stepping closer to Ilya until they were barely centimeters apart. Shane reached up and wrapped his arms around Ilya's neck. They were so close and he smelled so good. Shane breathed him in for a second. Fuck, he had missed him so badly. It had only been two weeks, but it felt like forever. "I missed you too." Ilya whispered. Wait, had Shane said that out loud? Oops. Maybe he was very drunk. "More than you know." Or, the transition from friends with benefits to lovers is far from seamless.
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- #78778406
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5 times Shane doesn't come out to his parents +1 time he has to
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- AO3:
- #79478961
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Shane gets his wisdom teeth removed and in his medicated state goes down a self deprecating rant. Ilya tries to grapple with his husband’s true feeling about himself.
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- #79397061
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Ilya noticed the little things, the nearly imperceptible movements of fingers and minutely shifting facial muscles. He noticed the patterns in it all as well, when it tended to happen more than not. One day, an internet rabbit hole leads him to learn that there may be more behind his boyfriends quirks than he initially thought. or: after some coaxing, Shane lets himself unmask enough to stim in front of Ilya. Ilya is predictably smitten
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- AO3:
- #78809906
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Late-night devil, put your hands on me by Anonymous
Top Gun (Movies), Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-13
Shane goes for a walk in LA rather than going to the hotel gym.
While wandering the streets, he meets someone who makes an impact on him for years to come.- Part 54 of Top Gun fics part six
- Part 8 of Hockey boys 🏒
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- AO3:
- #79443191
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my love is mine, all mine by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-13
“I want to eat you,” Ilya tells him.
Shane laughs, loud and bright and carefree, and Ilya feels it blooming inside of his chest like a sunflower. It only makes the desire to consume him grow even stronger. Not in a crazy way (probably), but because he feels like he can never get enough of this man. His Shane. His husband. No amount of time, no amount of closeness, ever feels like it could be enough.
He wants them both to be eternal, wants to live with their ribcages locked together and their hearts thumping against each other.
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- AO3:
- #79448741
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all secrets sleep in winter clothes by weeb_grass
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-11
“I can’t—” Shane tries to speak through the hysteria, but he gets caught trying to suck in a sharp breath. “I ca—” Hayden brings the phone back to his own ear. “He can’t hear you, man, he’s freaking out.” There’s shuffling on Rozanov’s end, then, very distinctly, he says, “Put me on speakerphone.” Or: Shane finds out about the plane malfunction just a tad too late. Featuring: breakdowns in the locker room, Ilya's love put on blast, and Comeau being the canonical dick we all know him to be.
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- AO3:
- #79328486
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“I’m glad it’s us, at the top.” Ilya admitted, letting his legs spread a bit as he visibly relaxed. “All that noise, about me not being able to hear and your-”
He motioned vaguely, and Shane finished for him, “Chronic pain?”
“Yes, that.” he hummed, “Was all nonsense. You’re good at what you do.”
Shane smiles, then. “I’m glad you think so.”
“Not as good as me, obviously.” Ilya added, and Shane rolled his eyes. “Can’t be too nice to you, can I?”
“Guess not.”
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Shane Hollander has a chronic pain condition and Ilya Rozanov is deaf. This inevitably means that they're going to be compared to one another, and this is only made worse when they're drafted to rival teams The Montreal Metros and The Boston Bears as first and second pick.
It was rare enough that mainstream sports received one disabled player but two? Drafted during the same season and always one-upping each other?
Well, it was unheard of.
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- English
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- 5/5
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- AO3:
- #77191796
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Shane, As Defined by Ilya. by Jamjamfae
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-10
Finally have time and inspiration to write a AU where Irina escapes her husband, and is able to take Ilya with her and raise him on her own with the support of the women of the neighbourhood like Yuna Hollander. 'There has never been a version of Shane that never loved Ilya.'
- Part 1 of There is no Shane without Ilya.
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79225396
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Ilya didn’t know what to do. he reached out to touch Shane’s shoulder and the other flinched so hard that he hit his elbow into the corner of the side table. “okay.. okay. no touching, that’s fine. hey. let’s sit, okay ? Shane ? let’s sit down.” without touching, he managed to get Shane sitting on the floor with his back against the couch. Ilya sat opposite him, a safe distance away. the Canadian didn’t say anything. he hummed into the silence and pinched at his forearms to try and ground himself. ---- Shane Hollander has had diagnosed autism since he was a child but has never told anyone, not even Ilya. What happens when he's had a long day and has a meltdown for the first time in front of him ?
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- #79225366
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this, the tale of reckless love by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-10
He wasn’t ready for this. Maybe he never would have been, not in two, or five, or ten years. Maybe he would have spent the rest of his life holding this secret inside, not telling a single soul about the way his heart beats for his biggest rival. Or maybe, in a year or ten or once he’s retired, he might have come out publicly. Might have shared his truth with the world. But that was supposed to be his choice. To tell or not to tell, to hide in the shade or step out into the sunshine. It was supposed to be his decision, and now it’s been taken from him.
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #79273551
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When Shane starts the document, it makes sense to him.
Later on, when it’s published onto a hundred different gossip sites with hundreds of comments dissecting every word, it looks insane.
It starts because Shane has no one to talk to about everything. He’s never even kept a journal. He balks at the thought of getting a therapist. It’s not like he’s going to risk writing it down physically for someone to find. The only logical way that Shane can think of to deal with his feelings is to open up a blank Google Docs page and start writing.
or Shane decides to write down all his feelings instead of talking to Ilya. After years of writing about their relationship, the entire document gets leaked online.
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78812706
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Ilya Rozanov, get loved.
- Part 1 of Duty of Care
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- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #77087096
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Shane Hollander goes Casual (so cool and unbothered) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-09
Shane Hollander is tired of wanting someone he cannot have, and he’s dying as he waits for someone who will not stay. Someone who doesn’t want to stay, not when there are so many others waiting for him. Fun of another variety, Shane left a treat amongst many.
It’s humiliating. It’s distracting. And it feels like shit.
He wishes he could erase his feelings, move on as easily. In an effort to gain back control over the ‘situation’ that has become his romantic attraction to a notorious player, Shane attempts at imitating Ilya Rozanov’s methods until he perfects them and becomes as good as keeping it light and casual as his rival.
Or Shane tries to Hoe Phase himself into a self discovery journey to choke and kill his feelings for Ilya Rozanov. Ilya is not the only who suffers from it, but he sure feels like he’s being choked and killed.
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Story ends after chapter 6 but I keep writing bonus because the hyper fixation doesn’t end.- Language:
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Three times Shane had meltdowns. Once when he's alone, then Ilya's first time seeing him have one, and lastly Ilya's umpteenth time, when he knows exactly how to help. Probably not book-canon (haven't read them), title from No Surprises by radiohead
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The edges of the picture had begun to bend; Shane was like a firework on the very verge of a convulsive explosion. The skirting of the doorway and the hand there gripping it were each as white as the other, and although the phone in his pocket rang and rang Shane made no move to answer it. It had been ringing since he’d last been an idiot, around seventeen minutes ago- when he had sent that stupid fucking message to Ilya Rozanov: “We didn’t even kiss”. _______ Or, its 2014 and the NHL has returned to Vegas. Shane sends that text and falls head-first off the deep end with a bottle from the hotel's mini fridge. Ilya must try to bring him back.
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- #79090536
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Strawberries & Cigarettes (They Always Taste Like You) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-08
Troy’s grin turned sharp and mischievous. “Alright then,” he spoke up. “New bet.”
“No.” Ilya groaned. “Why is everything always a bet?”
“Because you hate losing,” Wyatt answered as if it was obvious.
Troy clapped his hands together. “Okay, so,” he started, his eyes gleaming. “Rozanov has to get Shane Hollander to fall in love with him.”
Ilya stared at him, his brain’s processing lagging half a second behind. “You think you are jokester, yes? You are joking.”
or, in which hockey captain Ilya Rozanov drunkenly agrees to a bet to make the nerdy Shane Hollander fall in love with him
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- #78125021
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it isn’t hard to see with eyes closed, the love we made by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-08
It’s perhaps the sweetest Svetlana has ever known Ilyusha to be. She has always been granted access to the more affectionate side of Ilyusha, the one that he rarely shows to anyone else, but it was never anything compared to this. This tenderness, this adoration, that he gives so freely to Shane. It’s like her best friend is a completely different person right now, and she starts to wonder if maybe she was wrong earlier. Maybe, instead of being too boring for Ilyusha, perhaps Shane Hollander is giving him the space to become something soft. Something without walls, or masks, or armour. (Or, 5 times people doubt their love for each other, and 1 time they are certain of it.)
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- AO3:
- #79153686
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“But…” Ilya stalls out. He conjures his sun’s face: the soft curve of skin where the corner of his eye becomes the sweep of his cheekbone, the stubble that clings to the soft end of his chin, the strong and even line of his eyebrows. “Solnyshko,” Ilya says. “It means sun, yes, but… it’s like a pet name. Sunshine. Honey. I’m calling you my sun.”
This is mortifying in English. Christ, he should never have started this conversation. He should have shaken Shane off when he had the chance. Even as Ilya thinks this, he knows he could not have done it. He cannot deny Shanyshko anything. That has always been the problem between them. What a terrifying, awesome, horrible problem to have. Ilya would like to have this problem for the rest of his life.
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or, Ilya and Shane talk about their love, their lives.- Part 2 of sailing, sailing
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- #79146026
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In 2017, the Admirals win the Stanley Cup for the first time in twenty-eight years. Scott Hunter kisses a man at centre ice.
In 2017, Shane Hollander shatters apart in her father’s arms after twenty-six years of trying to be normal. Yuna Hollander finds herself with a daughter.
- Part 2 of mortal girl
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- AO3:
- #78977481