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  1. “So, you think you might be bisexual?” Again, it’s apparently the wrong thing to ask, because Pike huffs and sets both beer bottles on the counter before angrily knocking utensils out of his way in a drawer.

    “What’s it to you?” Pike snaps as he uncaps the two beers and slides one a few inches in Ilya’s direction.

    “I did just take a fifteen-minute cab to fuck you,” Ilya speaks slowly in case that’s what Pike needs to understand. “At your request. After admitting online that you think you might be–”

    Or: Ilya, heartbroken and bored in a Montreal hotel room, comes across a post on Reddit. Responding to it is one of the dumbest, most exciting things he’s done in a long time.

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  2. Twitter, June 16th, 2018

    Andy Coleman Sportsnet @AndyJColeman
    Hearing reports that the Voyageurs are looking to trade Hollander. Will update as this develops.

    Émile @OleVoyageursOle
    Replying to @AndyJColeman
    oh so we’re at that point in the off-season where you just start talking out of your ass huh

    Or: It’s the summer of 2018. To the disbelief of the public, rumors claiming that the Montreal Voyageurs will be trading Shane Hollander begin circulating online.

    As is often the case with professional hockey, Montreal’s loss is Boston’s gain.

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  3. “What makes him your best client?” Kip asks.

    “He’s nice, his dog is well behaved, the apartment is insane, and he has a very set schedule. It’s not a daily gig, it’s kind of random. You have to stay at his place in the Upper West Side a few times a week, but again, the apartment is amazing. He’s some kind of athlete? So the schedule is also nuts. But he gives, like, six months of dates in advance.” Maria answers.

    A set schedule of dates works for Kip, who is, these days, trying to make his own schedule.

    “And,” Maria smiles wide, “I think you’ll like him.”

    That beatific expression will come back to him, five days later, when he meets Scott Hunter for the first time.

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    Kip Grady is a PhD student who takes a side-gig walking Scott Hunter's dog. Along the way: the precarity of academia vs hockey; keeping something good at arm's length despite an innate desire for safety and love; gratuitous metaphors about both.

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  4. When Hayden celebrates his 26th birthday at the beginning of November, surrounded by family and close friends, he realizes he has nothing more to wish for. He has everything he needs, a perfect life. The only thing he regularly wishes for is for his best friend to have an equally perfect life, someone standing beside him. Someone who loves him and someone he loves. Hayden realizes he wants Lily to be here too, holding Shane’s hand as she takes her place around the table among family and friends. Closing his eyes, Hayden wishes that Shane could finally talk about his feelings with Lily. He wishes they would stop lying to each other and people in their lives about what they mean to each other. Six years is a long time to be causally seeing someone. Then he blows his candles.

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  5. Shane is convinced that Ilya Rozanov—captain of the Boston Bears and Shane’s newest student—hates him.

    Ilya joined Shane's yoga class specifically to get closer to the hot instructor, but every attempt at flirting only seems to make things worse.

    Neither of them has any idea the other is completely in love with them.

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  6. Shane picks up on the third ring.

    “What?”

    Ilya closes his eyes, humiliation twisting his gut. Still, though, it’s nice to hear his voice. His shoulders sag a little. “Hollander?”

    “I don’t–” Shane sighs, long and heavy. “Why are you calling?”

    Why is he calling? Ilya couldn’t answer. Not in any way that makes sense, anyway.

    Voice wobbling, Ilya says, “I am sorry.” He inhales, breath hitching horribly. “Was mistake.”

    On the other line, Shane goes quiet. Then, shuffling around, he says, “What’s going on, Rozanov?”

    Or: Ilya calls Shane in the middle of the night, and against his better judgment, Shane comes to find him.

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  7. Ilya hates that this is the way his official rivalry with Shane is ending. With him bundled under two blankets and a duvet, trying not to fall asleep as he watches Shane outplay his teammates on his TV.

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  8. “I wasn’t waiting for you!” Shane says, irritated. “No? You answered the door like you were standing on the other side of it when I knocked.” “Well, you did text. You told me you were coming,” Shane huffs. He steps back from Rozanov to glare at him. “I didn’t want you waking up my neighbours. It’s late.” Rozanov looks amused. “Hmm, if you say. But I do not think you have to worry about that tonight.” “Why?” Shane asks. Rozanov raises a brow. “Did you not know that tonight is New Year’s Eve?” “Oh. I guess I forgot.” OR Ilya visits Shane in his hotel room on New Year's Eve, set during their hookup years.

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  9. It’s winter in Ottawa and Ilya has hunkered down in his big, empty mansion to weather a nasty flu. Then his phone buzzes. — Guardian™ Security Alert: Movement detected at front door — (1) Missed Call: Yuna Hollander Or: The Hollanders have a new son to take care of. Ilya has no idea what’s going on.

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  10. Ilya wants to throw up. He thinks about someone else—a stranger—with his hands on Shane, unmaking him in the same way Ilya does, someone else getting to hear Shane’s little sounds and moans, getting to watch him fall apart, getting to be inside him. Ilya is hit with a devastation that nearly topples him over.

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  11. “We race.” Ilya pushed his shorts down and gripped his cock, smiling when Shane’s eyes dropped down to watch. “You run and I will touch myself. You do not stop, and I will not stop. Deal?” “You’re serious.” Shane huffed and folded his arms. “What happens if I win? If I last longer than you?” “If you win?” Ilya arched an eyebrow towards him. “You get to see me cum.” “Right.” Shane wished his voice hadn’t cracked just then. “And that’s supposed to be a reward?” “Yes.” Ilya bent one knee so his shorts pulled tight across his thighs, across the outline of his cock. “Obviously.” “And if I lose?” Shane swallowed nervously. “If I quit before you’re done. What then?” “...then you get to see me cum.” it came out nearly a growl in Ilya’s thick accent. “As punishment.” “Fuck.” Shane got back on the goddamn treadmill and hit the start button. “Fuck. Fine. Let’s go.”

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  12. He’s almost at his own door when the muffled sound of his own name catches his attention. “ —like an idiot. Scott Hunter is right next door.” Scott pauses, blinking. He then finds himself unconsciously stepping towards the door his name was uttered behind— before he abruptly freezes, eyes locking on the room number. It’s the room directly next to his own. The one Rozanov had walked out of just this morning. But that voice… it’s vaguely familiar, and it certainly doesn’t belong to Rozanov. Or: Scott Hunter has the unfortunate experience of rooming next to Ilya Rozanov at the 2011 All-Stars.

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  13. Last Cigarette by

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    Mickey and Ian play for rival hockey teams in the NHL

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