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“What does it fucking matter?” The voice is more familiar like this, in the brief burst of anger that came with those words. David had heard it on TV and in videos on his phone countless times over the last decade. He may not have put it together, except this entire hotel was reserved specifically for the All-Star teams and their families, and there weren’t many Russians in attendance except for- David’s son was secretly dating Ilya Rozanov. -- Or, why David was so calm when the rest of the world found out about Shane and Ilya.
- Part 3 of i can't seem to not need to need you
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- English
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- 5,296
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- AO3:
- #78630456
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“Everything is different,” Shane says, and there’s a telltale tightness building in his chest.
“It does not have to be,” Ilya says, in a rush, like he hasn’t spent an entire day making everything different.
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- AO3:
- #78621766
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Shane's overstimulation snowballs as they go run errands and Ilya has to catch him before he combusts Set after the Long Game
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- AO3:
- #78599346
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Hayden Pike's best friend Shane Hollander is as predictable and reliable as it gets. But when Shane uncharacteristically fights with Scott Hunter, of all people, Hayden needs to know why. As he sits in Shane's living room, waiting for an explanation, things start getting progressively more confusing. Why is Shane coming out to him? And how does Lily play into this? OR Hayden finds out about Lily after Shane and Scott fight on ice. When Hayden throws down gloves to take on a dinosaur, his closest ally is the most unlikely person.
- Part 2 of Hayden Pike Hockey-matic Universe
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- English
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- 14,388
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- 4/4
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77866101
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Safe in Your Heart by Maximoff_Wanda
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-29
Through the haze of his fear, Ilya tried desperately to remember the last time he had kissed Shane. The last time he had said I love you to him. He let himself live in the memory as a tear slid down his face. Ilya didn’t even have a photo of Shane that he could look at because they always delete them. For a brief moment, he thought about googling Shane just to look at him one last time. Then, just as quickly as their descent had started, the plane leveled out. Distantly, Ilya heard an announcement echoing throughout the cabin. He could barely translate it through the panic, catching words like “engine,” “emergency landing,” and “brace for a rough impact.” Or: What if the plane incident in The Long Game was more serious and Ilya got hurt?
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- English
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- AO3:
- #78554056
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Shane made it nearly all the way through their two weeks together without a panic attack. Nearly.
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- English
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- AO3:
- #78396886
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Worst Proposal Ever by RayByAnotherName
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-27
A locked folder from Shane's phone ends up on the internet for everyone to see, including his teammates. It certainly undercuts their victory against the Bears, but it'll all turn out right. Eventually.
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- English
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- 15,060
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #77735596
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The Freaky, The Freakier, and The Freakiest Friday by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-26
Ilya and Shane don't know how it happened. All they know is they woke up in the other's body. And now, they have games to play, interviews to do, and present an award together. What could possibly go wrong?
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- English
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- 19,104
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- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77697631
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a hole in his arms where the world used to be by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-26
“There’s information coming out that the Centaur’s plane crashed on its way to Tampa.”
The entire world tilts on its axis.
For a moment Shane feels like he’s being burned alive, and then in an instant it’s just bitter cold; there’s ice in his veins, his lungs, his heart. God, his heart. Is it still beating? He can’t tell. Surely not. Surely, if Ilya were - if he were gone, then Shane’s heart would have fallen still. There would be nothing left for it to beat for.
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- English
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- 5,066
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- 1/1
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78318431
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Achieving What We Can by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-25
Shane's pregnant. They've beaten the impossible odds, and now they have seven months to figure out what comes next. Or: Moments throughout Shane's pregnancy, from the first trimester's uncertainty to the final weeks, and when everything changes forever.
- Part 3 of alpha² hollanov
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- English
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- 11,136
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- AO3:
- #78254441
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It wasn’t something he did on purpose. And he doesn’t remember exactly when he started. All Shane knows is one day, when he was 16, he got a bad grade on a math test, and his parents rule was that as soon as any of his grades dipped below a B-, he was off the hockey team. He was still standing strong with a B+, and with only a couple months left of the year, chances are things would stay that way, but Shane still worked himself into a panic, and before he knew it, he was pinching his upper arm so hard that once he finally loosened his grip, it bruised immediately. So yeah. That became a thing. or Shane doesn't mean to hurt himself. It just ... happens. --- Set between 'Heated Rivalry' and 'The Long Game'.
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- AO3:
- #78271476
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Inspired by all these Shane Hollander gets subdrop after the Vegas scene fics. Where Shane leaves Ilya's room feeling incredibly self-destructive and Ilya pulls him out of it. or Shane's autism, being properly drunk for the first time, and going into subdrop make for an insanely whumpy combination.
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- English
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- 7,442
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78270986
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Shane and Ilya’s 12-year-old son has his first panic attack before a hockey game. Luckily for him, he has a dad who is all too familiar with them.
- Part 2 of Our House
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- English
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- 5,622
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- 1/1
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- AO3:
- #78078556
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when he got the call by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-24
”Shane,” a reporter from ESPN calls, “what is your comment on the plane crash?”
Shane does not know about any plane crash, but he is disconnected from the news anyway, especially on game day. He asks, “What plane crash?”
”The Ottawa Centaurs,” the reporter says, and Shane’s heart—stops.
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Shane is in a press conference when he finds out about the plane crash.
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- AO3:
- #78242711
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He reached into his pocket for his phone and fuck– he was still wearing Rozanov’s clothes. They smelt like him. He couldn’t go back inside now to get his own, that would make for even more embarrassment. I just need to get out of here, far away. He opened his phone and tried to call an Uber, but his vision was so blurry from unshed tears, he couldn't see a thing on the screen. What the fuck was he doing? Ilya is never going to talk to him again and he’s out here on the ground having a fucking panic attack. Or, what if when Shane leaves Ilya on the couch, he only makes it past the front door before breaking down?
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- English
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- 2,562
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- AO3:
- #78127391
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kiss me like a final meal by blueberrryink
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-23
Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth. Shane wishes he had gotten one. After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.
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- AO3:
- #78182176
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Realistically, Shane is more than aware he’s being irrational. There’s absolutely no reason for him to be freaking out the way he currently is. Shane is literally his name. All Rozanov did was call him his own name. Rozanov calls him by his name all the time. But it’s always his last. Never just Shane. Even though he’s been called that his whole life, the word feels unbearably intimate, coated in Rozanov’s annoyingly attractive russian accent. And that thought terrifies him. Or The tuna melt scene went differently, causing Shane and Ilya to realize their feelings a lot sooner.
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- AO3:
- #78075176
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It's been a long day. A good day for the most part...all things considered. But that's kind of the problem. Because once Shane's parents leave after coming for dinner, he finally lets himself consider all the things that have happened, and will happen, and might happen for him and Ilya. The panic attack he didn't quite have at his parents dining room table hits him like a ton of bricks, and poor Ilya is the unfortunate bystander. [Takes place later in the evening, the day Shane and Ilya get caught].
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- English
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- AO3:
- #77994676
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do your fingers move? (do your lungs inflate?) by fairyaverage, Light_Queen
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-19
This morning is not routine. This morning he didn't wake up before Ilya. This morning, Ilya decided his routine for him. Waking him up with a kiss and his breakfast already prepared. It was sweet, really, it was, (except his skin itched and he could feel his bones—) and normally Ilya doing this for him was fine, but normally it isn't his first week on a new team. He was so close to finishing this week, so close to being able to check this off his evergrowing list of things to make it through this monumental season of firsts. or, Shane is having a hard time adjusting to the teasing and familiarity and learns that he is safe here with the help of his new team
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- English
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- AO3:
- #77752961
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──★ ˙🏒 ̟ !! Where Shane doesn’t think he played well, when in reality he did, and spirals into a panic attack and stumbles into Hayden’s arms who does what he can to help his best friend. Even if it means calling Lily- who’s not… Lily?
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- English
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- 1
- AO3:
- #77940261