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"There’s more to mental health than just suicide, moy lyubimiy," Ilya reminded him gently. "You know this." A Tampa player's brother commits suicide, and the press are determined to get a statement from Ilya.
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- #77907816
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Shane waits for Ilya’s arm to curl around his waist, for the familiar weight of his body to press in close and ground him again.
Except it never comes.
He was gone. Ilya left.
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- #77856791
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"I know it's not fair to you. It's such bullshit, I should speak your language. Everyone should. You speak my language so I don't have to guess, but I do have to guess. I'm always guessing and getting things wrong." He swallows, thick and wet into the phone mic, a little exhalation at the end, like it's an effort to keep his spit inside his mouth. "Hollander, you are drunk. Are you alone?" -- 7am in the morning, in Moscow, Ilya wakes up to a drunk phone call from 11pm Dallas.
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This can't happen. Shane can't have feelings for Rozanov. Where could that possibly lead? Nowhere good, surely. Rozanov is not someone he can have. Not beyond the occasional hookup. That is the line they have drawn, no matter how blurred it becomes in Shane’s mind when he is laying blissed-out next to him, so close he swears he can hear Rozanov’s heart pounding just as loud as his own. No, it is casual. That’s what Rozanov wants. And if he senses that Shane wants anything else, anything more, he will end this. Shane is sure of it. He must find a way to be content with what he is given. Let himself down easy, now, before this gets out of hand. OR: After Shane almost sends the "we didn't even kiss text" in the Vegas elevator, he makes a decision to get his growing feelings for Ilya under control, once and for all. That decision includes a vow to not kiss Ilya the next time they meet up.
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- #77899106
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Ilya is, for all intents and purposes, a perfect sexual partner. Sometimes, Shane mused, too perfect. OR: Shane wants Ilya to be a bit rougher in the bedroom. Ilya complies.
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- #77853956
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Ilya Rozanov sucked cock the way he played hockey. Fast and dirty, absolutely ruthless, and most infuriatingly — really fucking good. ——— An angsty blowjob where Ilya and Shane both want the same things.
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- #77888151
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Shane almost misses the stench of a cigarette beside him after sex.
Shane has never smoked a cigarette in his life, but right now he’s craving the smell. Craving the specific ones Ilya smokes. It’s pathetic.
Shane is sitting up against his headboard, but he’s not alone in bed. Miles, Rose’s actor friend, lays next to him, eyes closed as he relaxes in the afterglow. For some reason, Shane doesn’t feel much of an afterglow himself.
After Rose breaks up with Shane, he sleeps with Miles, but all he can think about afterwards is Ilya.
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- #77866376
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“You miss your mommy, Rozanov?” “Not as much as I miss yours.” - Starting when he's 13, a series of looks into Ilya's relationship with his parents. Also featuring an answer to the famous question 'What did Ilya and David talk about while Shane was talking to Yuna?'
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- AO3:
- #77868251
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in the middle of the darkest night (in the middle of the hardest fight) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
“Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”
He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–
But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.
No.
No.
They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–
Oh god, they’d kill him.
__________________________________________________________________________A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.
- Part 2 of heated rivalry fics
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- #77085301
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Live Through This (And You Won't Look Back) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
Shane rolls onto his side and stares at the faint outline of the window. The darkness presses in, but it doesn’t feel as suffocating as usual.
Before he can talk himself out of it, he reaches for his phone. The screen lights up the room, too bright. His thumb hovers for a second, then he opens the thread.
Shane: I think we should tell Scott.
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Scott kissing a man on live television gives Shane and Ilya the courage to do more than just spend the summer together. What starts as coming out to one person suddenly snowballs into something much bigger. It changes everything, except how much they love each other.
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- AO3:
- #76826231
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After their engagement, Ilya and Shane return to Russia under the cover of the Irina Foundation, knowing it may be the last time Ilya ever sets foot there. What waits for him is not closure, but grief, memory, and a past he learned to survive by becoming quiet and hard. It isn’t about going back to the life he escaped. It’s about one final goodbye—to the place that shaped him, and to the mother he never stopped missing. With Shane beside him—steady, patient, and fiercely careful—Ilya faces grief he’s spent years surviving, old fear that still lives in his bones, and the quiet truth he’s been avoiding: some doors don’t close cleanly… but you can still choose how to leave them. This is a story about grief, survival, and choosing a future where home is no longer a place, but a person.
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- AO3:
- #77223881
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Hi Ilya by doorway (glossedmouth)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-17
Re-write of episode 6. Shane tells Ilya to stay in the car while he heads inside to explain things to David and Yuna. Ilya freaks out but obeys Shane.
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Check the news, Hayden Pike texts him, and it is news to Ilya that he has this man’s number at all, and that he is even saved under his own name and not just an unknown number. Ilya cannot help but to be curious so he does as the message says and checks his Twitter account, even though he has been awake only three seconds and he doesn’t trust Hayden Pike as far as he can throw him.
Shane Hollander and Rose Landry Announce Divorce, the headlines announce.
Ilya sits up.
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On a random Tuesday, Shane Hollander divorces Rose Landry. Ilya Rozanov does not waste time.
- Part 1 of Divorced Shane AU
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Eventually, they have to talk about it.
The world resumes its spins. The sex runs out. They kiss until their lips are bruised and they make up for lost time in any way that they can, and Ilya only leaves the hotel room to get food for them both. It is the middle of the night and their heartbeats have returned to normal. The silence has finally sunk in.
Shane whispers, “Talk now?”
Ilya kisses him on the forehead. “Talk now.”
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They talk about Shane’s divorce. They have a lot to say.
- Part 2 of Divorced Shane AU
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- #77838716
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the cadence of a secret by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-17
Did you figure anything out? Shane writes, and flips the page around for Ilya to read it.
Wont like the answer, Ilya’s written, in his quick hand.
So he doesn’t have to take the pen back, Shane just shrugs. What?
Ilya sits down at the desk for a steady surface to explain.
3 things
1 its curse. if true we can break it
2 its spell. if true we can break it
3 we are soulmates. if true we are fucked“No,” Shane mutters, before he can stop himself. Immediately, he slams a hand over his mouth.
or: Ilya and Shane are soulmates, and their bond prevents them from both talking and being apart. Unfortunately, the only thing that’ll make the pain stop is confessing the one thing they can say: that they’re in love.
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- #77347751
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For No Reason At All by dykeological
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-16
Tumblr headcanon thing turned ficlet about Shane's OCD drastically worsening during a stressful time in his life, becoming something he can no longer ignore.
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- #77760066
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Shane is on the verge of a meltdown, and doesn’t tell Ilya. There are consequences.
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And Shane thought he had, what? Come to Ottawa so he wouldn't have to work so hard? Ilya wanted to punch a wall. "I should have married Svetlana, and stayed with Boston," Ilya said, his voice filled with anger, before he could stop himself. Shit. or Shane crosses the line and Ilya says something he immediately regrets.
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- AO3:
- #77746736
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“Hollander? You are still here?” Rozanov called, breaking the TV static silence filling Shane’s head. He blinked. “Uh. Yeah, just leaving,” he answered, surprised by how steady his voice sounded. Good, that was good. He knew he couldn’t show Rozanov any weakness if he wanted to keep coming back. But did he want to come back if it made him feel like this? “Door is too heavy? Or I fuck you too good, you cannot move legs,” came Rozanov’s taunting response. Shane could practically see the tilted smirk on his face, cigarette smoke wafting around his freshly-showered curls. “Fuck off, Rozanov,” Shane muttered. _____________________ Or, I wrote something to add to the pile of subdrop!Shane in Vegas fics because legally by law I had to
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Coming back for even more of exactly the same by SatsumaSegments
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-16
Going to the club is the last thing Shane wants to do. But indulging what he wants is what got him here in the first place, and now he has to do his penance. -- This time, Shane does not leave with Rose.
- Part 2 of Leave the rest at arm's length
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- #77789136