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In which Ilya comes back to room fourteen ten.
Canon divergent from, and following directly after, s01e01 when Ilya leaves Shane's hotel room. Contains Ilya being a provocative dick, Shane being unable to resist rising (ha) to it, too much discussion of chicken, some David Attenborough, Shane negotiating his feelings and interpersonal relationships with all his classic suavity and skill, and as much sex as two nineteen year old professional athletes can fit into one evening.
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- #77919611
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you are the one mouth i would be a tongue to. by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
Ilya's hand continues its path up and down Shane's back, and Shane thinks again about how love is sometimes just this: a palm on the spine, moving in circles, waiting for you to come back to yourself. There is no promise of saving you—Ilya cannot save him, they both know this and are alright with it in their own ways—but there is a vow of staying, lingering in order to witness. Touching the bruise so that its pain triggers the memory that you are allowed to be touched. Outside, the snow continues its work of erasure. Inside, Shane's breathing begins to even out, every limb recalling how to be a man at rest rather than an animal fawning and freezing. The trembling subsides, wave by wave, as if Ilya's hand is smoothing it out of him. "Sleep, зайчик," Ilya says softly, his free hand coming to rest in Shane's hair. "I have you." This is not true, Shane thinks, and it is also the only true thing. ⋆ recovery, shane learns, is not a straight line. to begin to understand something, you must first name it.
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Shane Hollander is what you call a prodigy. Incredibly smart. Talented. Captain of the university's hockey team. He has no opponents. That's it, until a mysterious exchange student, Ilya Rozanov makes a surprise appearance. He storms into his life, taking everything Shane has diligently vowed to protect. Even his own heart.
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Seeing You With Her Kills Me by sillyloontattoo
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
After running out of Ilyas’s apartment, Shane breaks up with Rose, trying to move on. Weeks later, he sees Ilya with another woman, and the sight makes his buried emotions boil over. Maybe he really fucked this all up pretty badly. - Or Shane meets Svetlana and things take a different turn.
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in the middle of the darkest night (in the middle of the hardest fight) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
“Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”
He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–
But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.
No.
No.
They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–
Oh god, they’d kill him.
__________________________________________________________________________A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.
- Part 2 of heated rivalry fics
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the cadence of a secret by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-17
Did you figure anything out? Shane writes, and flips the page around for Ilya to read it.
Wont like the answer, Ilya’s written, in his quick hand.
So he doesn’t have to take the pen back, Shane just shrugs. What?
Ilya sits down at the desk for a steady surface to explain.
3 things
1 its curse. if true we can break it
2 its spell. if true we can break it
3 we are soulmates. if true we are fucked“No,” Shane mutters, before he can stop himself. Immediately, he slams a hand over his mouth.
or: Ilya and Shane are soulmates, and their bond prevents them from both talking and being apart. Unfortunately, the only thing that’ll make the pain stop is confessing the one thing they can say: that they’re in love.
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Shane has an eating disorder but he doesn’t know it. Ilya is concerned.
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Coming back for even more of exactly the same by SatsumaSegments
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-16
Going to the club is the last thing Shane wants to do. But indulging what he wants is what got him here in the first place, and now he has to do his penance. -- This time, Shane does not leave with Rose.
- Part 2 of Leave the rest at arm's length
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Based very loosely on events from The Long Game that my brain wanted to put into the first book, somewhere between Shane’s injury, and before Scott Hunter wins the cup - for maximum angst, obviously.
What if Ilya’s plane had actually crashed? And what if it had happened before he and Shane had the chance to confess their love and know what it was like to be together.
Or
A fic so I could write a really needy Shane who can't hide his feelings anymore, and an Ilya who is faced with the undeniable truth that someone cares for him.
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- #76636761
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Five Things You Can See by lillyluna
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-15
“I am sad.” Ilya says shortly. “Very sad.” “Where do you feel it in your body?” Shane tries to help. “Feel what? The sadness?” Ilya looks at him like he’s gone insane. “Yes, the emotion.” Shane starts to feel unsure, “In your body where do you feel it?” Shane thinks of all the times he’s worried about Ilya; how that worry lives in his throat and in the tension of his shoulders.
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My love for you is a molotov cocktail by ThreeCatsInA_trenchcoat
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-15
“Yes, it is Rozanov.” He bit out, pouring his rage in the receiver. “And I asked you question. Did it feel good threatening defenseless player? Did it make you feel like a big man? Like real man?” He flung out, bitterness coating the words like weapons. He hoped Hunter got poisoned. “I don’t und– Are you talking about fucking Hollander right now?” “Congratulations, Hunter, you still remember. I was worried that you would forget, in your old age. Or maybe it is because you threaten a lot of people, that you didn’t know?” Words felt so useless in that moment. He wanted real blades; things he could fling in Hunter’s face and draw blood. *** In the aftermath of his fight with Scott Hunter, Shane panics. For the first time since this whole thing started, someone knows. Ilya might not be as scared as Shane - Hunter knowing, isn't the worst surprise - but he is angry.
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i'll find a way to scare you too by laszlokreizlers
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-14
“How are you not fucking terrified?” His whisper almost sounds angry. “You almost died in a plane crash, and you aren’t freaked out at all. It’s the fucking—the anniversary of it, and you want to get on a plane?” Ilya’s blocked most of that day out, shoved that moment of terror and grief into a little box in a dark corner. He didn’t know it was today. And now he does, and the box unlocks.
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“See? I think maybe you are friends with Rozanov.” J.J. was kidding. Obviously he was kidding; no self-respecting member of the Montreal Metros would ever befriend a Raider. Shane was not very self-respecting. “What? No! I don’t even know who that is!” *or* Shane sucks at lying. This is a fact his parents were always grateful for, but it sure does make hiding a decades-long relationship with his arch rival difficult.
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He’s already in the room, shutting the door behind himself as quietly as he can before he realises that not only is there someone other than Shane in the room, but there are three someones other than Shane. And, as if he hasn’t already fucked up spectacularly, the someones happen to be the Hollanders and Hayden fucking Pike. // or; Ilya visits Shane in the hospital and meets his parents. He's traumatized and grieving, everything hurts, and Shane takes after his mother.
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Emergency Landing by manyfandomsmember
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-13
A reimagining of the night the Ottawa plane catches fire
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after Shane and Ilya's Boxing Day fight, Ilya has a game. it doesn't go well or, baby's first panic attack
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I was drowning (you pulled me out) by VKookies_ot7
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
4 times Shane kept it for himself, 1 time he didn't have to. or Shane struggles 4 times and 1 time Ilya is here to help.
- Part 1 of Hollanov
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Shane Hollander was caught kissing his boyfriend and rival, Ilya Rozanov, in the background of a video. He feels as if his world is crashing. Ilya is done hiding and Shane is terrified of the fallout. Shane chooses love but at what cost?
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was i made from a broken mold? by Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
Shane pulled out the vodka handle, wiping the dust off. He stared at it for a long moment. Shane rarely drank hard liquor. It made his head spin and his stomach uncomfortable, wasn’t worth all the extra calories. Wasn’t even really meant to drink on his meds, but. It would make him feel worse. It would make him feel like absolute shit. And that was exactly what Shane was counting on. So he had stumbled over to the bathroom, flipped on the dim overhead light, sunk to the bathroom floor, and drank. or: shane hollander gets super drunk on the bathroom floor after a really bad few days. it is not fun for anyone involved, but luckily ilya is there to pick up the pieces
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Ilyas's head had ended up between his knees, his hands wrapping around the back of his helmet. Ilya couldn't keep the thoughts away. He tried to think of things that didn't relate to Shane, or his mother, or hockey. Grasping at the mental straws, he couldn't come up with anything that didn't relate to Shane in some way. He had completely taken over Ilyas' life. Every good memory he had had Shane in it. Ilya spiralled further, the rubber floor seeming to spin. He had undone his helmet, letting it clatter onto the floor. OR What if Ilya couldn't hold it together when Shane got hurt?
- Part 1 of Heated Rivalry - Angst Time
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