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After nearly fifteen hours, two tumblers of vodka, and seven cigarettes, Ilya still needs an extra ten minutes—jaw set, his fingers gripping a bathroom sink—before he can walk into the room where Shane's been admitted to Montreal General. ----- Or, Ilya watches Shane take a hit; the ramifications take some time to translate
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Something Great by lucy_in_the_sky
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
It’s not fair. Shane doesn’t want to be with Rose and Ilya doesn’t want to marry Svetlana, but it would be so much fucking easier if they did want to, so much less complicated and actually accepted both legally and by the public. Sure, gay marriage is now legal in both Canada and the States but that’s only the tip of their problem-iceberg. It sucks and it’s stupid and it’s not fair and Shane feels childish whining and drinking about it but it’s not. Fucking. Fair.
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- #77493536
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“Mr Hollander I just-” He had been forming the words in his head the whole time. Translating it over and over to make sure it came out correctly. “David, please.” “What?” Ilya says. “David. Please call me David.” . . . Alternatively what Ilya was thinking and feeling during the second half of episode 6
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- #77104646
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think how you will grieve for all you leave behind by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-04
He used to visit his mother all the time when he was in Moscow for the off-season. He’d take bouquets of marigolds and sunflowers, and he’d decorate her grave with them to try and brighten it up. He’d even placed a little solar powered lantern there for nighttime, so she wouldn’t feel so frightened of the dark. It’s silly, probably. He knows she isn’t really there; knows that nothing is left of her but bones, by now. But still. Ilya had left it there anyway, just in case. He’ll never get to visit his mama’s grave again.
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- #77083311
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Four times Ilya Rozanov denies himself Shane Hollander, and the one time he finally crumbles.
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- #76988616
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listen how the heart beats by 5ambreakdown
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-02
“He’s good, Mama,” Ilya thinks, not for the first time. “He’s good. Like you.” --- or, the morning after confessing their love, ilya takes a moment for himself and his mother by the lake.
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the law of loving others by xiaomaomii
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-01
There are footsteps outside, a nurse probably, so Ilya readies himself for goodbye. It’s too soon. Too soon. How am I meant to leave him here? Bruised, without wrapping him up in that navy weighted blanket he likes. Without feeding him his stupid, regimented rabbit diet and his ginger ale? Without teasing him about his neatness habits and about the singular pass he missed in that game we played against each other years ago? Without kissing him all over–his cheeks, his lips, his eyelids, across his chest, and the curve of his spine. His scapula, where his wings must be hiding. Angel Hollander. Boring Hollander. Beautiful Hollander. That’s all he is, beautiful. Ilya’s chest feels full to bursting. If his heart were a machine, it would destroy him, and then the world, with love. OR, Shane gets hurt on the ice. Ilya does not take it well. He thinks, and thinks, and thinks.
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Set during and after episode six. Ilya goes with Shane to Yuna and David’s house expecting discomfort, tension, and restraint. Instead, he finds warmth, awkward honesty, and something he never thought he’d be offered so easily: acceptance. "To be looked at fully. To be recognised. And to be loved anyway." A fic about being chosen, being seen, and the quiet certainty of knowing where you belong. With him.
- Part 1 of Between the Lines
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Wherever I'm with you by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-30
He drives to the airport with an unshakeable urge to pull over and turn around. He smokes four cigarettes in a row before he boards the plane, then chews an entire pack of gum on the flight to try and cover the worst of the smell.
He exits the airport half-hoping that Shane has chickened out of the whole thing. Then he spots him, tapping his fingers against the steering wheel in the most boring suburban dad car Ilya has ever had the misfortune of laying his eyes on, and he’s so happy to see him that his legs feel unsteady beneath his weight.
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Or, the cottage, Ilya's version: an extended ep 6 featuring my take on what happened in the gaps we didn't see.
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you are god over the storm, and i am yours by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-30
He learned how to play the role they all wanted to see him in - learned how to wear the mask. But not with Ilya. Shane has never had to tone himself down for Ilya, never had to make himself smaller or quieter or more palatable. He has never had to shrink so that he is easier for Ilya to hold.
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Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father. “Do you still read New Yorker?” OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.
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- AO3:
- #76703756
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I Got Dreams But I Can't Make Myself Believe Them by SuddenlyLaury
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-28
He knows that they voted him into the alternate captain position, but the feelings of inadequacy and being an outsider do more than just linger. He can’t stop thinking about it. Can’t stop thinking about the fact that he wouldn’t feel this way had the country that brought him up not turned its back on him. “I mean,” starts the interviewer curtly, “there are a lot of Canadians who feel uneasy about a foreigner even being on the team, let alone being a captain. I guess what I’m really trying to ask is: why make the switch at all? Just to get around the ban?” OR: Ilya and Shane go to the Olympics together and feelings are complicated
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Yuna is Shane Hollander’s manager but she is also his mother. Before anything else, she will always be her son’s mother. But also his manager. She knows him best. Or Yuna had thought for many years that she knew Shane better than most other people. Still, Shane hid how he really feels for many, many years. Out of fear of being ostracized for being different. For several reasons.
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- #76531041
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as you wander through this troubled world by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-27
Having a child is like having a second heart beating outside of your body. You carry them, and you hold them in your arms for the very first time, and you soothe them when they cry. You protect them, and keep them safe, and you try and instil them with all the skills and attributes they need to succeed, to thrive, to be happy. You do that for as long as you can…as long as they will allow you. And then you let them go. You send them out into the world, and hope with everything in you that it doesn’t break them.
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Rose Landry went to theatre school. And had an astounding number of gay boyfriends to show for it. Honestly, sometimes it felt like a curse to her. And now, with Shane Hollander, she had the bad feeling that it had struck again. Set during Episode 5. -- Rose Landry is reflecting on her 10 boyfriends, 70% - no, make that 80% - of which have left her for other guys. Because nobody can tell me that girl hasn't had some kind of crisis with THAT track record.
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Ilya is 38 and he feels it in all the ways that really matter. A fic about kids, aging, and the life you build (but there's still smut, because come on, it's Shane and Ilya).
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- #76376266
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He shouldn’t even be entertaining this. After exchanging such heated gazes in the shower, Shane is pretty certain he knows what Rozanov wants by coming to his room. And it’s absolutely not something either of them should want. It’s not something Shane should want. Another Alpha is not something Shane should want. Ilya and Shane's first time reimagined through Omegaverse
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- #76365306
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Ilya tries to visit Shane in the hospital the night he's injured, and fails.
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built to fall apart (and fall back together) by theprinceandagcd
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-24
Shane doesn't know how long they sit there in silence. He isn't counting seconds or minutes as the time passes by, quiet and heavy in the dim light of the hotel room. Instead, he counts Ilya's breaths—the ones that tremble and shake against the skin of Shane's neck, the ones that are buried in the fabric of Shane's shirt, the ones that become steadier the longer that Shane holds him as tight as he can.
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- AO3:
- #76351506
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I Don't Need Drugs ('Cause I'm Already High Enough) by lipstickliterature
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-24
Shane has an emergency wisdom tooth extraction. Ilya takes care of him.
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- AO3:
- #76315931
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