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Shane never had a party phase. He's not fun.
Being convinced by his boyfriend to try out roofies in public was certainly not on his Bingo Card for the year.
- Part 7 of penalties
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- #78115321
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Shane Hollander and his Human Weighted Blanket by CoorsOnTap
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-24
This task of ‘shutting Shane’s brain off,’ aka stopping panic attacks, had become a sort of game to Ilya. His current list of approved methods were sex (obviously), hot/cold showers and sour candy. Reserved for particularly bad attacks was dunking Shane’s face in an ice bath, though this method was not preferred by either of them. The most efficient way (besides sex) is the “weighted blanket” method. OR: Shane spirals in a way-too-hot shower and Ilya pulls him out.
- Part 1 of Hollonov One Shots
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- #78215646
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The Centaurs stay in a hotel that's been overbooked. That means they have two less rooms then what was planned. The Hockey husbands have to room with Bood. Now Bood is a witness to their nighttime routine. And how...soft Ilya is with his husband. It makes him miss his wife.
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- #78197106
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I'm at the chateau (and I feel alright) by SunshineHollanov (eddieintheupsidedown)
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-24
Shane comes home after a long, exhausting day. His brain stopped responding hours ago and there's only one person who can bring him back to this realm now. Luckily Ilya knows exactly how to care for his husband.
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- AO3:
- #78184816
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"You should grow this longer," Rozanov once said, running his fingers through Shane's practical cut, the same one he had since he was fifteen. Rozanov's blond curls had fallen in his eyes. Behind them, his blue eyes glittered like he was looking at the sun. "You would be so lovely."
It felt like being lit on fire.
Or; Shane is Rozanov's girl.
- Part 1 of mortal girl
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- English
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- 5/5
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #77746391
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kiss me like a final meal by blueberrryink
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-23
Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth. Shane wishes he had gotten one. After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.
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- #78182176
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Kip loves Scott, so he's willing to join him wherever he's needed, whether that's at games or social events or - god forbid - MLH-mandated youth hockey initiatives. Even if Ilya Rozanov is there. OR: Kip and Ilya meet after the on-ice kiss. An unlikely friendship ensues, along with an even more unlikely double date. OR: Scott Hunter thinks Rozanov might have found a new and unusual method of torture: making friends with his boyfriend. That alone is bad enough, but when Rozanov shows up at his door with Shane Hollander in tow, Scott is left to reckon with the frankly unfathomable fact of their secret decade-long relationship. He still thinks he's too lazy to be a serial killer, but perhaps a single premeditated murder isn't off the table.
- Part 3 of My Moon
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- AO3:
- #77233221
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Shane punishes himself after the Voyageurs lose a game. Ilya saves him from himself. Shane liked to punish himself. He liked order. Rules. And when all of his strategic planning didn’t go his way, he punished himself. It was the only way to repent. It was one of the rules. Tonight, the Voyageurs had lost. Shane was the Captain, so it was his fault. Another reason for his punishments was Shane’s reaction to things that were out of his control or did not go according to plan. He tended to spiral, which also made him angry at himself. He should be able to handle things like a normal person, by bending instead of breaking. However, he’s never been like that, as far back as he can remember. Tonight, after his subsequent spiral after the game, his punishment is a cold shower. A freezing shower. He sits in the bottom of the walk-in shower at the Montreal apartment building he rents out, the one he usually meets with Ilya at. He didn’t deserve to go back to his real home. He’s been sitting here for a while, staring at nothing and letting the cold pellets of water pelt him over and over. He can barely feel it anymore. “Hollander. Shane.” A voice says. Shane looks over, through the glass door. Oh. Ilya is here. The shower door opens and he reaches in, then recoils when the water hits his arm. “Hollander, this water is freezing!” Ilya looks horrified. He hurriedly turns the handle to off and cups Shane’s cheek. “Why are you in freezing shower?” His palm is big and warm, and Shane doesn’t deserve it. However, he’s also not quite present enough to resist. He also hasn’t found his words quite yet. They’re locked up tight somewhere between his brain and his mouth. Ilya’s hand smoothes his soaked, chilly hair back. “How long have you been here?” He asks. Shane doesn’t answer, he can’t. Ilya pulls him up gently by his elbows and tugs him out of the shower. Shane can’t be bothered to be embarrassed by his nakedness, besides, they’ve seen each other nude and in compromising positions many times by now. A fluffy towel is grabbed off the hook on the wall and wrapped around Shane. Then a smaller one is used to scrub his hair. Ilya wraps his arms around him after, pulling him tight into his chest even though he’s still wet and freezing. Shane shivers violently against him. “Is okay. Is okay now.” Ilya murmurs. He pulls Shane out into the bedroom gently by the hand. Sits him down. Takes the spare clothes out of the closet and dresses him in them with care. Socks. Boxer briefs. Sweatpants. A plain t-shirt and then a hoodie. Shane doesn’t think he deserves any of it. He’s not sure if he finished his punishment sufficiently. Ilya kneels back down in front of him and rests careful palms on his knees. “Hollander.” Shane looks at him. “You should not ever do that again.” Ilya doesn’t understand that he has to. He gets up and Shane can hear him moving around the kitchen. He stays put, staring down at his socks. Ilya returns with a blender bottle filled with water and one of Shane’s electrolyte packets. He shakes it overzealously and then hands it to Shane. “Drink.” Shane drinks it diligently. He doesn’t want to disappoint Ilya more than he already has. He’s already been so bad today, he can do something right.
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- #78124326
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Realistically, Shane is more than aware he’s being irrational. There’s absolutely no reason for him to be freaking out the way he currently is. Shane is literally his name. All Rozanov did was call him his own name. Rozanov calls him by his name all the time. But it’s always his last. Never just Shane. Even though he’s been called that his whole life, the word feels unbearably intimate, coated in Rozanov’s annoyingly attractive russian accent. And that thought terrifies him. Or The tuna melt scene went differently, causing Shane and Ilya to realize their feelings a lot sooner.
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- AO3:
- #78075176
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The Weight of the World or Maybe Just Myself by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-22
Shane feels his feelings after the locker room scene in The Long Game i.e. Shane finally gets to crash out about being Asian-Canadian in a majority white sport and all the things that comes with.
- Part 1 of Shane Being Asian
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- AO3:
- #78093371
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Ilya gave Shane the ugliest fucking orange lamp as a well-meaning gift. Now Shane wants it gone, just like how the man who gave it to him is.
Set during The Long Game, with Ilya unable to contact Shane after the emergency landing. Shane believes he's dead, spirals, and then smashes some lamps.
This wasn’t meant to be taken seriously but it took a turn and I was powerless to stop it.- Part 2 of Lovely Lights
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- 12/12
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- AO3:
- #76919966
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The Five Year Farewell by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-21
At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.
Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.
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- AO3:
- #77906231
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It was clear by the tone of Shane’s voice that he was not doing well, he was panicking and he was begging for Ilya to fix it and he wished for nothing more than to catch the next flight to Montreal and hold Shane in his arms and fucking fix it but he knew that was impossible. Or, Shane navigates being a transgender professional athlete and Ilya is by his side every step of the way.
- Part 2 of Trans!Shane Hollander
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- #78038216
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there I saw you standing (must have been a holy light) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-21
There’s a sudden cacophony of yells. As Shane turns to find the source of the noise, the only thing he can see is red splattered across the ice and a #81 jersey.
For an absurd moment, all he can think is “my parents are at this game. Hayden and Jackie are in the stands. Thank god the kids aren’t here.”
He doesn’t remember moving, but the next thing he knows, he’s kneeling in a pool of blood with his hands on Ilya’s neck, certain that he was about to die.
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- AO3:
- #77598791
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something you can build by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-21
Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.
It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.
(Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)
- Part 2 of something you can fix
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- AO3:
- #77007546
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Shane’s whining beneath him, head thrown back, exposing the long column of his neck and rutting up against Ilya. Ilya licks up his throat, nibbling at Shane’s jaw, before his lips brush the shell of Shane’s ear. “Tell me what you want.” The reply is instant. “You.” ---- or: after his drunken confession, shane keeps avoiding ilya. at a student party ilya finally gets the chance to speak to him. part 2 to Close to Me
- Part 8 of Hollanov Drabbles
- Part 2 of hollanov college au
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- #77948501
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do your fingers move? (do your lungs inflate?) by fairyaverage, Light_Queen
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-19
This morning is not routine. This morning he didn't wake up before Ilya. This morning, Ilya decided his routine for him. Waking him up with a kiss and his breakfast already prepared. It was sweet, really, it was, (except his skin itched and he could feel his bones—) and normally Ilya doing this for him was fine, but normally it isn't his first week on a new team. He was so close to finishing this week, so close to being able to check this off his evergrowing list of things to make it through this monumental season of firsts. or, Shane is having a hard time adjusting to the teasing and familiarity and learns that he is safe here with the help of his new team
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- AO3:
- #77752961
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──★ ˙🏒 ̟ !! Where Shane doesn’t think he played well, when in reality he did, and spirals into a panic attack and stumbles into Hayden’s arms who does what he can to help his best friend. Even if it means calling Lily- who’s not… Lily?
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- #77940261
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In which Ilya comes back to room fourteen ten.
Canon divergent from, and following directly after, s01e01 when Ilya leaves Shane's hotel room. Contains Ilya being a provocative dick, Shane being unable to resist rising (ha) to it, too much discussion of chicken, some David Attenborough, Shane negotiating his feelings and interpersonal relationships with all his classic suavity and skill, and as much sex as two nineteen year old professional athletes can fit into one evening.
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- English
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- #77919611
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you are the one mouth i would be a tongue to. by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
Ilya's hand continues its path up and down Shane's back, and Shane thinks again about how love is sometimes just this: a palm on the spine, moving in circles, waiting for you to come back to yourself. There is no promise of saving you—Ilya cannot save him, they both know this and are alright with it in their own ways—but there is a vow of staying, lingering in order to witness. Touching the bruise so that its pain triggers the memory that you are allowed to be touched. Outside, the snow continues its work of erasure. Inside, Shane's breathing begins to even out, every limb recalling how to be a man at rest rather than an animal fawning and freezing. The trembling subsides, wave by wave, as if Ilya's hand is smoothing it out of him. "Sleep, зайчик," Ilya says softly, his free hand coming to rest in Shane's hair. "I have you." This is not true, Shane thinks, and it is also the only true thing. ⋆ recovery, shane learns, is not a straight line. to begin to understand something, you must first name it.
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- AO3:
- #77899881