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Never Forgotten (except the sound of her voice) by TheQueenoftheAbyss
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-27
'I have seen your charity in her name, Mama should not be forgotten.' The note was short and to the point, no love for Ilya from his brother was scrawled into the familiar letters. But there was love for their mother there, and there was the fact that Andrei had sent it at all. - Ilya's brother sends a parcel containing home video from Ilya's childhood to Canada. Ilya never expected to receive a parcel from his brother after five years of no contact, and He never expected to hear his mother's voice again.
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- AO3:
- #76549256
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Sound of sirens, rush of pain (I almost thought I heard you call my name) by 17darwinism
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-26
"He imagined Shane would be similarly unforgiving if Ilya took his own life. Not that Ilya ever would. Unless he couldn’t help it." (The Long Game) or, Two years after being diagnosed with depression, Ilya wants to commit suicide.
- Part 1 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #76443546
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What if Ilya and Shane never had that fight on Boxing Day? What if he never told Shane how he felt about hiding their relationship? an alternate(sadder) version of how that conversation in chapter 22 could have gone, set in the long game :(
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- #76394806
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Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are wrapping up the end of their first full summer as a married couple. They have just celebrated their first year wedding anniversary, there is no impending doom. Their friends know, their family knows, their fans know, whoever cares to know, knows. They are playing for the same team once again, when the season starts. And they are happy. There is nothing to fear. No practice to get to. For now they get to rest. Just them, in their home, with each other. Or A day in Shane and Ilya's domestic life full of conversations, teasing, and adoration in three parts, (late) morning, evening and night.
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- AO3:
- #76427941
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Supermarket Flowers by stargazingstormtrooper92
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-25
"I know I'm not tehnically your mother and I don't want to overstep here but I need you to know that I'm so insanelly proud of you and that both me and David are here for you forever. I can't even imagine how it must've felt like living your life carrying that burden on your back for all those years but we're here to take the load off, in whatever manner you want us to (...) "So, if that means motherly cuddling sessions, watching some cheesy cartoons or Hallmark movies let be it. If that means you calling us in the middle of the night because you had a panic attack and didn't want to bother Shane we'll be fine with that either. I just don't want you to be all alone when something like this happens." *** Or: Ilya has a nightmare about his mom while Shane is playing a game in New York. Yuna is there to take care of her favourite son 🥹 💛
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- AO3:
- #76415536
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andante, andante (oh, please don’t let me down) by lovedays
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-24
It’s automatic, taking care of Anya like this. Despite the darkness in his head, and the pit resting in his ribs, Ilya manages to ground himself to her. Shane can be just as grounding, but it’s Anya that allows him to let his mind smooth out and focus on just about nothing. Because if Ilya thinks of Shane, the worst thoughts always return. OR, Ilya’s depression gets the better of him.
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- AO3:
- #76296806
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Teeth don't lie by Fangirl_In_Gray
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-24
Do you ever feel depressed? Ilya paused again. Yes, but why would a dentist need to know that? What if this dentist told the rest of the team medical staff, and they benched him or took away his captaincy because he was depressed? He checked no. Ilya gets a dental cleaning and has to confront the fact that maybe he is not managing his depression as well as he thinks.
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- AO3:
- #76355401
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Still Waters by TheQueenoftheAbyss
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-24
“Ilya hasn’t been very well recently.” Shane swallowed, he hated saying that out loud, “Not for a long time actually.” ~ Ilya's depression is flat, still and cold like water, sometimes he thinks it might drown him. The Hollanders are here to help him float. (Or Ilya has a bad day, Yuna notices, and in the Hollander household love and support are given by force.)
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- AO3:
- #76331606
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a thrill of hope, a weary man rejoices by honeybeebeeeight
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-21
Christmas had never really been a joyous time of year for Ilya Rozanov. This year is his first Christmas with the Hollander family and, despite his best efforts, he finds himself struggling. The Hollander's help in their own quiet way. or, on a frozen pond outside of the Hollander home, Ilya allows himself to be loved.
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- AO3:
- #76111546
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too foreign for home (too foreign for here) by TessaTheDreamer
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-21
"Shane Hollander was learning Russian at an infuriatingly fast pace. Ilya predicted that the already bilingual man, who had no accent in either English or French, would exceed Ilya's own Russian skills in no time and rocket to intimate familiarity with the musical vowels and soft lilts of his native language. Which would be made even easier for Shane by the fact that Ilya hadn't spoken a full sentence of Russian in over two years" Ilya freaks out about forgetting Russian. He finds comfort in Shane.
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- AO3:
- #76153576
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Ilya drinks to cope and crashes hard. Shane is gentle, patient, and exactly what he needs.
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- AO3:
- #76126621
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I don’t know why. by TheQueenoftheAbyss
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-21
When Ilya’s depression rears its ugly head in a new way Shane is there to catch him as he falls. Because everyone deserves a Shane to catch them. !Ep 6/ The Long game spoilers! (Sort of)
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- #76165306
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The Not-So Heartless Monster by newtntommy
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-20
Ilya Rozanov is an asshole. It’s a fact of life. The sky is blue. Grass is green. The Bears are going to lose this season. Ilya Rozanov is an asshole. Hayden’s POV
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- AO3:
- #76052321
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“I said I’m fine.” “You don’t sound fine.” “Why does it matter how I sound?” Ilya spins back around, frustration spilling over. “Why is there always something? Tone, face, body language. Maybe I’m just fucking tired, Shane. Maybe I don’t have the energy to be ‘okay’ correctly.” Shane swallows. “I’m not asking you to be okay.” “It feels like it,” Ilya scoffs. “It feels like if I don’t say the right words, if I don’t say them the right way, you’ll keep pushing until you get something out of me.” — Ilya’s mother’s birthday sends Ilya down a rough episode, in which Shane tries understanding him.
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- AO3:
- #75839256
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too broken to fix by sochilya (93kooker)
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-12
“Are you going to be a dick and not talk about it?” Shane finally asks. Ilya is not a dick. Not always. Only when he really wants to be. “I get worried when you’re like this.” “You will have panic attack, Hollander.” “Ilya.” Shane rolls into him and buries his face into Ilya’s chest. Ilya leans down to take a long breath of his damp hair. Being close to him should be enough. Isn’t it enough? “I’m serious. I notice things.” (or; Ilya is fucking depressed again. The only person who helps is Shane.)
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- AO3:
- #75614041
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hey there, baby, I could use just a little help by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-07-02
Days like today, Ilya's heart felt heavy. Like there was a dense paperweight or heavy stone pressing down on it. Deep in his gut, it felt like a tender bruise, so far inside that he couldn’t reach it, but its presence was powerful. It was the emotional equivalent of how his body felt after the playoffs, totally beaten down and sore everywhere. It was a deeply permeating sense of despair.
quick little Ilya depression fic, with comfort from his caring husband.
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- AO3:
- #67114021
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