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Ilya knows he has to get up, soon, but he doesn't feel up to the task today. Shane notices.
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Saying Nice Things About You (Behind Your Back) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-01-19
“Yeah, what the hell?” Comeau echoes. “Since when do you go around defending Rozanov?”
“I – I’m not,” Hayden says, starting to carefully fold his clothes so he doesn’t have to look anyone in the eye. Maybe Shane is onto something, always folding his things instead of throwing them into his bag. Gives you a moment to concentrate on something manual, to think before having to respond to questions and comments.
“You literally were defending him right now,” J. J. points out.---
Four times Hayden defends Ilya Rozanov to other people, and one time he defends Ilya from himself.
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let me go, soldier, let me go by wishbones
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-18
Until the nights stretched longer and longer, when the tightness returned to his chest, heavy and familiar. Until he started waking up with the sense that something was wrong even when everything looked right. Shane slept beside him, steady and sure, breathing deep and even. Ilya lay awake, staring at the ceiling, one hand pressed over the gold band on his finger like an anchor. He had everything he’d ever wanted. And still, somewhere deep in his bones, he felt the dark beginning to stir again. or, during Shane's first season playing in Ottawa, Ilya's mental health begins to decline.
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“I had a dream,” Ilya replied. Shane tensed up. Shit! But Ilya soothed him, “A new one. Good one.” “Good?” “Yeah,” Ilya breathed. === One day, Shane finds Ilya listening to a melancholic piano piece on repeat.
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the winner takes it all (the loser has to fall) by foxesjosten
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-14
“Shane, shit, don’t look now.” Rose says. “Paparazzi?” Shane guesses. They’d been on them for weeks. He was no stranger to some pictures here and there, but being with Rose was different. She couldn’t walk down the block without someone shoving a camera in her face. He hoped they hadn’t followed them here. He didn’t want to be at this club and he definitely didn’t want to be photographed. “No,” Rose says. Something in her tone makes Shane turn. It’s not worry exactly, but something in that family, a pace to the left. Concern? Trouble? He tries to follow her eyes, tries to catch what she sees. It’s no use. He doesn’t see until it’s too late. “It’s Ilya Rozanov.”
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Dear Ilya, Please Let Me Love You by Meishali
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-14
“When was the last time you ate or drank anything?” Yuna quickly scans the bedside tables. There’s a mug with a dried brown bottom and a can of coke, presumably empty, since it’s lying on its side without any spills. The mountain of covers shifts once as if Ilya shrugs underneath. She’s certain he’s not eaten anything that day, and maybe even the day before. “I brought soup. I can heat some up and bring it over to the bed?” --- Yuna Hollander takes care of Ilya Rozanov during one of his “quiet” episodes and attempts to communicate through the universal love language of food.
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“No. I did have to. You were upset. Is not okay for you to be upset. Ever.” Shane blinks at him. Rozanov blinks back. Neither comment on his words – on the lines they cross, ever so slightly. When Shane doesn’t protest, Rozanov smiles sweetly, swiping his thumb over the man’s bottom teeth. He feels along the ridges of each tooth, pressing his blunt nail into the gums behind them. “Sweet thing. You come to me if you feel this way, yes? I will make it all better.” ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------- Shane has a hard week, resulting in a meltdown. He calls Ilya. Ilya decides to fuck it all better. Spoiler: it works.
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conscience runs, ‘til out of breath by tothemoon
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
Ilya considers, then, the idea of a smaller joy, the kind so molecular no one would know how to make him feel sorry for any of it. He thinks of Svetlana and him at McDonald’s, drunk and laughing; sprints, instead of long and dreadful runs; and even then that familiar swath of freckles, all faded from weak winter sun. There are times when Ilya is sorry, and there are times when he is not. (or: Heated Rivalry, as told through so many apologies.)
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in this life and the next by lisa6
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
“Why do you think it’s the same person every time?” Ilya asked, smiling. His phone disappeared back in his jeans pocket. “I’m hot. Lots of women want me to fuck them.” Svetlana leaned in close to his ear. “And men?” Or: ever since they were children, Svetlana Vetrova has always been there for Ilya Rozanov, her best friend in the world.
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lost color in my face by Pale_Blue
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
“Do not worry,” Ilya breathed against his lips. As if Shane had a choice in the matter. As if worry hadn’t kept Shane awake past midnight for weeks, as if he wasn’t scared to leave the house for too long in case Ilya did something stupid in his absence. He’d promised he wouldn’t. Several times over. Shane wanted to believe him, he did, but the worse Ilya’s depression got the more hollow the promise felt. “I always worry about you,” Shane said softly, pushing Ilya’s hair back from his forehead.
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Romance Language by ancientzebra (ancient_sewing_machine)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-10
"Ilya knew, conceptually, that Hollander spoke French. Hearing him actually speak it was a different thing entirely however." --- vignettes of shane speaking french from ilya's pov
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Lonesome Is A State of Mind by zankiefanatic
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-08
Set ~6 months after The Long Game. Shane and Ilya have settled nicely into married life, and the big stressors of sneaking around are finally behind them. *Enter all that mental health shit we barely addressed at all* Ilya finds himself in the thick of a depressive episode, and Shane finds himself desperately auditioning for Husband of the Year. There is love and feelings and therapy.
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Show Me How my Body Works by Infinitely_Odd
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-08
It's the festive season, and university student Ilya needs a job. Lush is hiring. Also Known As: Ilya: Worlds Worst Lush Employee
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my honeymoon, my honeyman by kryptic_girl
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-08
Shane and Ilya's honeymoon in Ibiza was supposed to be simple: first-class flights, Michelin- starred restaurants, and a luxury hotel where they could finally be openly, unapologetically in love. And it is -- until a case of mistaken identity at a nightclub spirals into their first real fight as a married couple. A post-TLG story about two idiots in love learning that "happily ever after" still requires showing up for the hard conversations. TW: recreational drug use and references to abuse/depression
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one cigarette in the non-smoker’s tray by thegrandoptimist
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-05
With their mouths slotted firmly together, lips parted just right, Ilya exhales heavily into Shane's mouth. The smoke flows between them again, filling up Shane's lungs. The only way Shane can describe the experience is warm. Ilya's mouth is warm against his, his hand is warm where it rests on his chin, and the smoke he breathes in is warm as it fills his lungs. Ilya pulls away just enough to let him exhale out all the smoke, but Shane quickly slams their mouths back together, tongue pushing past his parted lips. [or: Ilya shows Shane how enjoyable getting high can be.]
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i hope you're gonna get out soon by feeling_the_aster33
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-05
Set after The Cottage except Ilya has another season with Boston before his free agency. When they played each other for the first time that season Shane was excited, but Ilya didn't share the sentiment. There was something wrong with him, he was chirping more than usual and checking a lot harder than necessary. Shane wished they could just talk, but Ilya wasn't in the mood. Things escalated in a way neither of them ever thought they would. Or: In all the years of their rivalry, Ilya and Shane have never fought on the ice before. At least, not before tonight.
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hand to mouth (i'm getting by) by Pale_Blue
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-04
The box lay on the table between them and Ilya scowled at it. Antidepressants. He could practically hear his father scoffing from beyond the grave.
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i'd share a life (and you'd share a life) by feeling_the_aster33
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-03
Set in The Long Game. What if Shane was the one on the plane? And what if Ilya was on the bus with his team when Shane texted him? Based on a Tweet (link in notes)
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Someplace to go by paleredheadinascifi
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-02
“You didn’t have, like, a favourite book growing up?” It’s ridiculous, the way his heart starts beating in his chest like he is in danger. He knows he is not in danger — he is in bed with his husband. But his body feels like he is in danger. Ilya shifts. “My mother read a lot,” he admits carefully. “She read to me." Or, Shane reads boring hockey books. Ilya doesn't remember the last time he touched a book. Shane asks so many questions.
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breathe in my lungs and i'll leave in your arms by flowersarepoisonous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-01
Ilya gets stuck out in the snow. Shane gets him warm again.
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