Summary:

Until the nights stretched longer and longer, when the tightness returned to his chest, heavy and familiar. Until he started waking up with the sense that something was wrong even when everything looked right. Shane slept beside him, steady and sure, breathing deep and even. Ilya lay awake, staring at the ceiling, one hand pressed over the gold band on his finger like an anchor. He had everything he’d ever wanted. And still, somewhere deep in his bones, he felt the dark beginning to stir again. or, during Shane's first season playing in Ottawa, Ilya's mental health begins to decline.