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Shane hisses through his teeth at the thermometer's reading, and Ilya sees the PR nightmare that they're about to walk through even through his delirious haze. There's no way the media isn't going to notice Shane Hollander taking Ilya Rozanov to the ER.
- Part 1 of HR/Game Changers Sickfic
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- English
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- #76368186
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Shane's anxiety has been getting worse. He has no idea why but it's impacting his game and that's a problem.
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- English
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- AO3:
- #75507796
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kiss it better (don’t leave me uncovered) by Wurmblau
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-23
Too caught up in their own heads, both Shane and Ilya don't realize that Shane has dropped until he has already left the suite. Rozanov fixes it whilst also discovering a thing or two. Or: Shane gets the kiss.
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- English
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- 4,265
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #76156216
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love, pull your sore ribs in (i will pull your tangles out) by nevereverever
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-22
Being a professional athlete in a contact sport is an exercise in enduring pain. Sometimes you get benched for three weeks because you have a broken cheekbone after you get hit in the face with a slap shot. Sometimes you play through a strained quad, a bruised shoulder, a mild fever. Most times, it’s just the constant, unending soreness that comes with pushing your body to its limit every single day. Every athlete had an injury they hated most, though, one that’s particularly painful or recurrent or just annoying. Ilya fucking hated injuring his ribs. There is almost nothing you can do with your body that doesn't involve moving your torso, and the pain is deep, throbbing, and gets just a tiny bit worse every time you breathe. Sitting up hurts, lying down hurts, walking hurts, and worst of all, coughing fucking hurts. or Ilya is sick and injured in the off-season. Luckily, Shane loves him so very much and is there to take care of him.
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- English
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- 5,150
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- 1
- AO3:
- #75348276
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pushing it down & praying by lavender (punchinginadream)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-22
“I get kind of–” Shane makes a little whining noise in the back of his throat, tips his head toward the ceiling for a moment before looking back at Ilya. “I hate those fucking press conferences. I hate them, Roz, and sometimes it just feels like too much and I can’t–” One hand goes up to run through his hair, already a little mussed, and Shane gives it a slight tug, making a frustrated noise that Ilya hasn’t heard before. And Ilya decides that’s enough. - or, a post-game press conference makes shane hit his breaking point. ilya goes after him.
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- English
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- AO3:
- #76212981
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I'm Here. With You. Forever. by Ilyasloontattoo (mochicheekies)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-21
An anonymous video leaks of Montreal players trash-talking Shane, and it quickly goes viral. The backlash sends him into a panic attack, but Ilya is there, steady and protective, helping him through it when everything else feels out of control.
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- English
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- AO3:
- #76164596
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"Something… happened at lunch." That was surprisingly ominous, even for Ilya. Shane was immediately freaking out. Something was wrong. Very wrong. Shane's mind immediately went to very dark places. Someone got traded. Someone was seriously injured. Someone was dead. He tried to keep his voice even as he said, "Okay." "I don't–" Ilya's face crumpled as he knelt on the floor in front of Shane. "I'm so sorry." Okay. This was an Ilya thing. Oh god. Shane couldn't stop the spiral. One of them was getting traded. Or their sex tape had been leaked. Or he was dying. Or– "I think I have a kid." Or, Ilya had a kid with a one-night stand. Shane handles this a whole lot better than anyone (even himself) expected.
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- English
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #75519201
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life is amazing with you on the ride by miss_minnelli
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-21
“Okay, if you’re going to be cagey, I’ll just lay out some facts.” Jessie clears her throat and Shane is absolutely fucked. He should know better than to try to hide something from a future lawyer. “Fact number one—” “Oh for fuck’s sake.” “Quiet, you,” she says, sounding exactly like Mom. “Fact number one: You’re acting really weird right now. Fact number two: You got super cagey and strange after your photo shoot this summer. What do both of those events have in common? One Ilya Rozanov. Fact number three: You have been low-to-high-key obsessed with Ilya Rozanov for two years now, and even though we’ve never talked about it again, you said you thought about a man during sex last year. When I put all these facts together, I think the answer is pretty obvious.” Shane doesn’t know whether to laugh or cry. But he needs her to say it. He cannot bring himself to admit what is happening out loud. He just presses his fingers harder against his eyes. “You’re still not going to tell me? Ugh, Shane! Did you fuck Ilya Rozanov?” Or: The events of Heated Rivalry if Shane had a nosy, supportive, bisexual twin sister.
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- English
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #76144641
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The Not-So Heartless Monster by newtntommy
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-20
Ilya Rozanov is an asshole. It’s a fact of life. The sky is blue. Grass is green. The Bears are going to lose this season. Ilya Rozanov is an asshole. Hayden’s POV
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- AO3:
- #76052321
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A fix-it fic for the Tuna Melt scene, except Shane has an anxiety attack about everything before Ilya can make it better.
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- AO3:
- #76085711
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Hi, this is Ilya. I will never listen to your voicemail.
Shane jolts like he’s been shot, a sharp breath bursting from the depths of his diaphragm. The comfort of hearing Ilya’s voice fizzles out with the knowledge that Ilya didn’t pick up. Logic says he’s still on the flight. But why would he—
Ilya knows how Shane is, how he gets. He wouldn’t send a bunch of ominous fucking messages and then drop off the face of the earth without letting Shane know he’s okay.
Except, he did. Which means—
The plane scene, reimagined. ft. Ilya's voicemail.
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- AO3:
- #76057191
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The elevator doors dinged open as soon as he pressed the button—the first blessing of the night. Ilya stepped inside, pushed the button for his floor and leaned back against the mirror- covered wall. He pulled out his phone and if he checked his messages it wasn’t because he wanted to see if “Jane” had finally broken his silence; no. It was because— A second before the doors closed, a hand darted through between them, forcing them to hiccup to a stop and slide open again. Ilya rolled his eyes. He really didn’t feel like sharing this one moment of silence he’d earned so he put on the sourest face he could muster to signal his true and honest feelings on any sort of interaction that may be forced upon him. And that’s the look that Shane fucking Hollander got to see as soon as the doors opened again.
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- AO3:
- #75998481
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“You’re contracting me to join FanMail?” Shane Hollander stares at his Coach in disbelief, “FanMail.” “It’s a new initiative to have all of you interacting more with fan spaces,” Coach Wiebe sighs, “it’s not just you, it’s the whole team. Something a little more personalised for the fans and you get a little money on the side too. Can’t be so bad, eh?” Or; Shane Hollander has joined the Centaurs and is told he has to start a FanMail page to make video requests for fans. What could go wrong?
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- AO3:
- #75892671
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Shane leans his head against the elevator wall, wanting nothing more than to cry. His eyes are red rimmed, he knows, and the pressure behind them is building. They didn’t even kiss. He just has to wait until he’s back in his hotel room. Then he can turn on the waterworks, maybe turn on a bath and sink beneath the surface so he can’t feel the hot tears slipping from his eyes. The elevator dings at his floor. He reaches in his pocket for his keycard, but doesn’t find it. He searches his other pocket, then the pockets of his jacket. Nothing. Or, Post episode two, Shane loses his key and has to go back up to Ilya's room. And has a panic attack about it.
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- AO3:
- #75802626
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"You're starting to sound like him." --- Running away from the ice after his fight with Scott Hunter, Shane locked himself in a changing room. In the midst of a panic attack, Rozanov called. Shane, alone, scared and desperately missing him, answered.
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- #75582521
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When Ilya had asked about making the reservation, Shane had insisted it was fine, because why wouldn’t it be? They’ve been together for years, and now Shane can finally hold Ilya’s hand in public. He doesn’t have to think of some convoluted excuse if they get caught together, because the world knows now. They don’t have to keep lying and sneaking around. No more late night rendezvous, no more deleting selfies from their text threads, no more acting like Ilya’s just a friend. They can lay it all on the line now. They can be themselves, out and proud and… And that’s a lot. And Shane feels guilty about feeling that way. They’ve waited for this moment, planned for it, and now he’s going against all the habits he’s built, he’s ruffling the feathers of his life, going against the grain so to speak. He shouldn’t think anything of it – he’s sure Ilya doesn’t. But his brain won’t stop working overtime. --- OR, Shane and Ilya go out publicly for the first time since being outed. Shane has a hard time with it.
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- #75472281
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"What are we going to do?" Shane whispered. "I will tell them it was me." Rozanov said, interrupting them both. "You would do that for Shane?" David asked. "Is only way." "Ilya, don't be stupid." "Tell me other way then, Hollander." Shane's eyes went glassy again. "But - you won't be able to go home. Russia. It won't be safe for you-" Hayden exchanged a look with J.J. This whole situation was so fucked. (someone working at the hotel leaks a picture of shane entering ilya's penthouse)
- Part 1 of ways they didn't find out
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- #75235571
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Lily: i am alive Lily: hurt Lily: but they gave me drugs it’s nice Lily: i want you Lily: my hands miss yours or; ilya gets injured on the ice. shane can't handle it.
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- AO3:
- #75425226
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Little Bit Wiser by dabforpalermo
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-06
Shane Hollander has four issues right now. Two of them are found tucked behind his back molars, the third is his crippling fear of dentists, and the fourth is a husband who doesn’t seem to care that he’d rather die than step foot in an orthodontist’s office.
- Part 2 of Hollanov
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- AO3:
- #75349681
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you’d been born to bleed, little soldier by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-06
“Ilya,” he whispers. “I want this. I want to know when you’re hurting and when things are hard, because I want you. I want you when you’re sad, and lonely, and messy-“
“-you hate mess,” Ilya teases, drawing a hard-earned smile out of Shane.
“But I love you.”
(Or the argument in The Long Game, rewritten.)
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- AO3:
- #75306476