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Bad depression day for Ilya. "Ilya just stares into the air -he doesn't know when he opened his eyes-, his face looks empty, lifeless like someone stole all the emotions from it."
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- AO3:
- #77451061
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After leaving Ilya to his own devices for too long, Shane finally gets back in the picture and tries to help fix what he broke.
- Part 4 of Seasons of Hollanov
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- AO3:
- #77287686
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Show Me How my Body Works by Infinitely_Odd
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-08
It's the festive season, and university student Ilya needs a job. Lush is hiring. Also Known As: Ilya: Worlds Worst Lush Employee
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- 2 versions
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- #77298431
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“I could marry Svetlana.” Ilya says it the way he does in real life. Loose. Half-amused. Like he’s commenting on the weather or the merits of a toaster. "And I could have a gun. What's new?" Shane thinks. Shane can't hide the hurt in his eyes as he meets Ilya's gaze, calm and collected. "She's American, it would be easy citizenship," he pauses, typing on his phone absentmindedly. "She would do it. Her father is goalie Sergei Vitrov." Shane scoffs, "Yeah, you've told me." "She would help me..." Ilya says in a singsong tone. or; what if Shane never says "Don't Marry Svetlana" and dreams about it? Inspired by the song "Dream Cheater" by Precious Pepala
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- English
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- AO3:
- #77033116
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Pain Has a Memory by orphan_account
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-30
After a sudden, crippling migraine causes Shane to collapse at home, Ilya returns to find him unconscious and surrounded by scattered pills, spurred by Anya’s urgent warnings. The scene plunges Ilya into old fears as paramedics rush Shane to the hospital. With Yuna and David at their side, Shane slowly regains consciousness to help the family weave comfort, reassurance, and unspoken love through the quiet moments between fear and recovery.
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- English
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- AO3:
- #76714731
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Looking back at it now, how he longed for his own bed, he thought maybe his mother wasn’t lazy at all, but maybe her own mind and heart were just simply too heavy for her to lift. He hoped that practice would help his mood lift, and his medication would kick in. He’d be back to being himself. The rink was cold when Shane and he entered, hand in hand, and the loud chatter of his team immediately made a headache bloom behind his eyes. Ilya is having a bad depression day, but at the end of it all Shane is right there to help him.
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- AO3:
- #76686321
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andante, andante (oh, please don’t let me down) by lovedays
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-24
It’s automatic, taking care of Anya like this. Despite the darkness in his head, and the pit resting in his ribs, Ilya manages to ground himself to her. Shane can be just as grounding, but it’s Anya that allows him to let his mind smooth out and focus on just about nothing. Because if Ilya thinks of Shane, the worst thoughts always return. OR, Ilya’s depression gets the better of him.
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- English
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- 5,140
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- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76296806
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