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ilya's yearning playlist when shane ghosted him by blankjournals
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-03
Lily: is it too late now to say sorry? Lily: cause I'm missing more than just ur body Lily: is it too late now to say sorry? Lily: yeah I know that I let you down Lily: is it too late to say I'm sorry now OR: an exploration of Ilya's Spotify listening history the 2 months shane ghosted him and started dating Rose. ft an uncomfortable number of songs about heartbreak, jealousy and a man whose “I don’t care” playlist says otherwise.
- Part 1 of hollanov's playlist
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,077
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76980221
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i keep closing my eyes, but i can't block you out by alpinelakegirl
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-02
A rewrite of episode four and what happens afterward. “Well yeah,” Shane said, his voice took the slightly bratty tone that Rozanov loves. “You keep your house cold as shit.” This made Rozanov burst out laughing. He went towards his dresser to pull out a hoodie. He pauses as he sees Shane’s perfectly folded outfit settle neatly on the wood. He lets a small smile cross his lips within the privacy his back has provided from Shane. Like in every piece of clothing Rozanov has ever had the luxury of peeling off of Shane’s body a neat S.H. was written on the label of Shane’s jacket. He was about to toss an old CCM sweatshirt to Shane when a different one caught his eye. The team had got them this year, they were black with the Boston Bear’s logo in yellow. The hoodie was branded with Rozanov’s number and last name on it. The thought of Hollander, Montreal’s and the NHL’s golden boy, wearing his name did something to him. I guess he didn’t care that Shane was a hockey god, the only thing he cared about was the fact that in a few moments he was going to see Shane wearing his last name. Something he couldn’t let himself dream of.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 62,984
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75676731
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Ilya steals Shane’s shirt and they are both obviously super casual and chill about it.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,032
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76631406
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Based on That Clip which essentially re-wired my brain; Shane living his best sex-starved life in yet another hotel room with Ilya, as all the while their plausible deniability wears gossamer thin.
- Part 1 of between the lines, between the sheets
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 9,248
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76547656
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I'll Catch You When You Fall by probsnothawkeye
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-26
Shane was leaving. Ilya kept trying to call out to him, to explain, to stop him, but the words were all stuck in his chest. Shane Hollander was leaving.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,091
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76445826
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“The fuck are you wearing, Roz?” Ilya jerked his head up and turned around. Cliff Marleau was staring at him with a puzzled expression. “A t-shirt, Marly,” Ilya said. “You’ve heard of them?” “Why the fuck are you wearing a Metros shirt though?” Marleau crossed his arms across his chest. What? Ilya was about to retort, something about Marleau taking too many hits to the head, but when he glanced down, he was surprised, then horrified to see the red and blue Montreal Metros logo in the dead centre of his white shirt. Shane’s white shirt. Fuck.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,989
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76216036
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“I want you to fuck me, Rozanov,” is the first thing Shane says as soon as the door closes behind him. “Hello to you too, Hollander. It’s good to see you. Want some coffee?” — After a bad game, Shane seeks out Ilya to relieve some tension in a purely physical way. Or at least that's what he tells himself. It's not that he wants to be comforted. Definitely not.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,943
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75668901
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Ilya wouldn’t say that he had planned this all out. To say that he’d planned it would mean that he cared, and he definitely didn’t care that much. Not in the way that would get him in trouble. It didn’t change the fact that he’d added ginger ale to his grocery delivery that week knowing full well that he’d never drink it himself. He sent the text that evening when he knew Hollander should be back in his hotel room. Come over. [Ilya's POV of how it all went down the night he wanted Shane to stay over.]
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,542
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #74709891
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Ilya didn’t know what was worse: knowing Hollander’s favourite ginger ale brand, or caring too much about getting his hands on a case of it. He planned to use it as leverage to convince Hollander to stay the night at his Boston penthouse. To sleep in his bed until morning. Or, that time Ilya Rozanov nearly had a mental breakdown at the grocery store the night before he’d planned to fuck and make a tuna melt for Shane Hollander.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,005
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #73892311
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- Language:
- en
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- ?/?
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