Summary:

Shane knows the plan to wait to come out until they retire isn't ideal, but he doesn't have a better one. He thinks that he and Ilya can make it work, until his mom points out how long they will have to live their lives in the shadows.

But once he realizes that, he immediately knows that he can't come out. It would ruin his legacy.

He's pretty sure that's why he doesn't want to come out. No other reason. Right?

He is sure that's all it is until Ilya asks him if he would be safe if he came out. And he can't answer.

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or Yuna does the math on the retirement plan and when she points this out it opens Shane's eyes.

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also known as this author had (1) idea for a scene and had to reverse engineer a multi-chapter fic to make it happen.