Summary:

Everything was going smoothly. The plan was working soon they could breathe. The foundation was doing great, the camps were working, Ottawa was getting better since Ilya became captain of the team and their relationship....it was so good that they were true with themselves, their close friends and family. Well that's what Shane thought until the wall crumbled and he saw the brutal truth right in front of him. + Everything happens back to back. The boys don't take a break until summer Everything was going smoothly. The plan was working soon they could breathe. The foundation was doing great, the camps were working, Ottawa was getting better since Ilya became captain of the team and their relationship....it was so good that they were true with themselves, their close friends and family. Well that's what Shane thought until the wall crumbled and he saw the brutal truth right in front of him Ilya hadn't been himself for a while now. But their schedules didn't help them to actually talk about serious stuff when one of them flew away or had practice. Anytime they meet Shane would forget about this concern and drown in their lustful time together. ....... It all happened too fast for Shane to catch up. It was just a party And Shane didn't realize that it wasn't just the party it was everything. They both said many things. Things both of them regretted. They had their biggest fight they had in years And Shane didn't hold back. He fired back. He didn't hold back and said some nasty things to Ilya. Why did he ask him ? Why did he push for the answer ? Why did he push him ? WOULD YOU CHOOSE ME? He was an asshole He had been crying since he left Ilya. Would Ilya choose shane? Really!! He already did!!! Ilya gave so much for them. He had left a great team to move to Ottawa and be closer to Shane. God, he made his boyfriend move to his hometown. Away from the friends he made in Boston, even the complicated friendship he had with Svetlana. He had friends and family that supported him and expected Ilya to be cool that his friends and family accepted him as Shane's boyfriend?? It was true that Ilya only had people that were from Shane's side as friends. Their fight really wasn't about the party It was because Ilya wanted...no, he needed to breathe. Ilya and shane had talked briefly, both had games elsewhere not having the time to meet and talk. Only from facetime that was limited by the schedules. But it was enough to give them some air to breathe. But they would talk when they were both home.