Summary:

Ilya had pried out all of Shane’s dirty little desires from behind his ribcage; how Shane wants Ilya to force him—really genuinely force him—even when he desperately wants to stop, how he needs Ilya to do whatever he wants to him, to own Shane so completely that nothing he does could make Ilya stop. And the carefully held control that Shane has over his own life is so mind numbingly draining in a way that frequently has him wanting to curl into a ball and cry. But when he’s with Ilya, he doesn’t have to worry about it anymore, he doesn’t even have to think unless Ilya asks him a question. It is his salvation; this control that Ilya wields over him so easily, taking the reins without Shane even needing to ask, and Shane wants more of it. He doesn’t want to have any control over what Ilya does to him, he doesn’t want to have to think about it or make decisions for it, Ilya knows him, and he trusts Ilya. OR: Shane gives Ilya the power to ignore his safeword whenever he wants