Rating:

Not Rated

Archive Warning:

No Archive Warnings Apply

Category:

M/M

Fandoms:

Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types

Relationships:

Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau & Ilya Rozanov

Characters:

Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau, Rose Landry, Hayden Pike, Yuna Hollander, David Hollander

Additional Tags:

Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander, Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov, Anxious Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov is Obsessed With Shane Hollander, Shane Hollander Walks Ilya Rozanov Like A Dog, Jealous Shane Hollander, Good Friend Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau, Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau & Ilya Rozanov Friendship, Twitter, Texting, Miscommunication, Bad Friend Hayden Pike, Good Friend Rose Landry, Shane Hollander & Rose Landry Friendship, Protective Yuna Hollander, Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov Being an Asshole, Shane Hollander Calls Ilya Rozanov "Baby"

Language:

English

Stats:

Published: 2026-06-09 Words: 5,899 Chapters: 1/1

Boston Buddies

Summary

When Ilya's phone is hacked and all of his private texts are leaked, Shane Hollander is grateful for insisting that he and Ilya delete their texts each day.

What he did not expect, though, was to find out that Ilya and Cliff Marlow were having sex throughout Ilya's time in Boston... and maybe still are.

Notes

This was meant to be funny but very quickly turned very sad

timelines might not make sense but I'm choosing to ignore that xx

You can hover over/tap the Russian text to see the translation :)

Also remember to have work skin/creator style turned on for the best experience!

Lily

19 Sept 2020, 10:44

Shane

Ilya

Ilya what is happening?

Lily

what are you talking about?

Shane

have you not seen twitter?

they're saying your texts have been leaked

Lily

what???

hold on

19 Sept 2020, 11:06

Lily

well fuck

Shane

are they bad?

surely they didn't get any of ours right?

you do delete our text each day yeah?

yes???

Lily

yes Hollander I do I am not stupid

none of our texts were leaked

you are not in it other than being mentioned by other people

Shane

okay good

sorry I didn't meant to freak out

so the texts that did get leaked can't be that bad then can they?

Lily

maybe it is best if you do not read them

Cliff Marlow

18 Apr 2013, 16:34

Cliff

hey sexy

you free tonight?

Ilya

yes

you got something good for me in mind?

Cliff

bring that big dick to mine and I'll show you a good time 😉

Ilya

will be round in an hour

Cliff

YES

literally fucking shaking can't wait to see you 😫

Cliff Marlow

22 Jan 2014, 22:01

Ilya

you awake?

Cliff

yeah why?

is this a booty call???

Ilya

only if you want it to be

Cliff

you know I always want it to be 😍

Ilya

can't get enough of my big dick can you 🍆

Cliff

ugh you always know how to turn me on

I've got rum, want me to come round?

Ilya

yes

I will not drink your rum though

taste is like cat piss

Cliff

whatever asshole more for me!

Cliff Marlow

5 Sept 2016, 11:02

Ilya

what are you wearing?

Cliff

currently a gym top and gym shorts

Ilya

hmm I can picture you perfectly

Cliff

Ilya

fuckkk

💦💦

so hard

Cliff

just how I like you

Cliff Marlow

11 Dec 2016, 18:29

Cliff

need you

Ilya

what's up?

Cliff

need your big dick

Ilya

you got condoms and lube?

Cliff

always stocked up for you baby

also got that disgusting vodka you like

come over at 8?

Ilya

👍🍑

Read 18:34

Hayden Pike

19 Sept 2020, 11:24

Hayden

yo have you seen the tweets about Rozanov and Marlow???

Shane

yeah I just finished skimming through a couple of them

Hayden

not what I expected on a Saturday morning

Shane

you can say that again

Hayden

are they real?

there's no way they're real

Shane

I don't know

I think they might be

Ilya didn't say they were fake when I messaged him earlier

Hayden

wow holy shit

so him and Marlow are fucking?

Shane

I don't know

I mean at the very least I hope it was 'were' and not 'are'

Hayden

did you read all of the texts?

Shane

no only a couple from a few years ago

Hayden

aw buddy

some of them are from like last week

and they're not any better than the ones from when he was at Boston

Shane

what

Read 11:37

Cliff Marlow

11 Sept 2020, 15:18

Cliff

when the fuck are you coming back to Boston?

Ilya

we play you in just over a month

11th October

Cliff

fuck yes I'm so excited

counting down the days

I have it on my calendar as 'seeing big sexy Russian daddy'

Ilya

I would laugh but I know you're being serious

Cliff

you're telling me I'm not on your calendar? 💔

Ilya

you're down as 'hottie in Boston'

Cliff

I'll take it

still can't believe you left Boston for fucking Ottawa

was it for that Montreal girl?

you know I give better head than her any day of the week

Ilya

oh I know you do

slut

Cliff

only for you 😋

Hayden Pike

19 Sept 2020, 11:46

Shane

oh my god

Hayden

Shane buddy

Shane

they can't be real

he wouldn't cheat on me

I don't care if they done whatever years ago

but I thought we were committed

I mean I love him

Hayden

shit Shane I'm sorry

I don't know what to say

I mean he was always with someone new each week when you guys weren't exclusive

I guess he just never stopped

Shane

Hayden don't please

Hayden

I'm just saying

fuck him

I've told you so many times that he isn't worth it

this is just proving my point

Shane

Hayden quit it

Hayden

sorry

do you want me to come over?

Shane

no it's okay

think I just want to be alone right now

wrap my head around it

Hayden

okay well I'll keep my phone on in case you change your mind

or call me if you need

love you bro

Shane

thanks hayd love you too

:

Read 11:51

Cliff Marlow

19 Sept 2020, 11:51

Cliff

you're a fucking idiot

how the fuck did you let your phone get hacked

Ilya

yes Marlow because I said to hacker 'here take all of my messages and post them is no problem'

obviously I didn't know fuckwad

Cliff

LMAOOO

Marlonov is trending on Twitter

Ilya

oh for fucks sake

Cliff

I've seen people arguing about who's the top and who's the bottom between us

Ilya

well I'd obviously be the top

Cliff

fuck off I'm not getting fucked in the ass

that shit would burn

Ilya

not if I was doing it 😉

besides pretty much all of the texts were you begging for my dick

is not very top behavior of you

Cliff

what can I say, you just do things to me Rozy

Lily

19 Sept 2020, 12:11

Lily

my name is #1 trending

it has been a while since that happened

I have been good to not get in scandal recently

Shane

yeah

Lily

your boyfriend is Twitter famous

Shane

my boyfriend

Lily

um yes?

unless I missed the part where we broke up

Shane

or maybe I missed it

Lily

Shane what are you saying

I don't understand

Shane

you're unbelievable

Lily

Shane what is wrong?

what have I done?

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Lily

Shane pick up the phone

Missed call from Lily

Shane

stop texting me

Lily

Shane

Missed call from Lily

Rose Landry

19 Sept 2020, 12:33

Rose

hey hun just seen everything happening on Twitter

sorry I can't call I'm on set

is it real?

Shane

yeah I think so

Ilya hasn't denied it and Marlow posted something about it

Rose

oh yeah I seen that

how are you doing?

Shane

I don't know

I feel stupid

I have been here counting down the times I get to see him every couple of months, while he's busy fucking sexting other people

I thought we actually meant something

Rose

oh honey :(

have you spoken to him?

Shane

he texted me some stupid joke about being Twitter famous

and then he was pretending to be confused when I was mad at him

I can't fucking believe him

he moved to Ottawa to be close to me, we've spoken about getting married and having kids and having a future together

why would he do all of that if he didn't want to be with me?

Rose

oh Shane I'm so sorry

I really have no idea what to say to make this any better

give yourself a few hours to think about it and let it settle, then have a conversation with him

Shane

okay yeah that sounds good

thank you Rose

Rose

no problem Shane I love you

I need to go back onto set but I'll keep my phone close ❤️

Shane

love you too

Read 12:50

Yuna Hollander

19 Sept 2020, 13:15

Ilya

hello Yuna

Yuna

hello Ilya!

how are you?

Ilya

has Shane spoken to you today?

Yuna

no not today, is something wrong?

Ilya

I am not sure

we were talking about the leaked texts and then he got angry and wouldn't answer my calls

I am not sure what I have done wrong

Yuna

leaked texts???

Ilya

you have not seen them on twitter?

Yuna

David banned me from Twitter before 2PM

have you and Shane been outed?

Ilya

no no nothing bad like that

do not worry about leaked texts

in fact do not even look for them

I just wanted to know if Shane is okay

Yuna

I'll message him

Ilya

thank you

Read 13:22

Mom

19 Sept 2020, 13:23

Mom

Hi Shane

I just got a message from Ilya

Shane

I don't want to hear it

Mom

oh?

he said something about leaked Tweets?

I haven't looked at them yet

Shane

someone hacked his phone and leaked all of his messages

the ones that are trending are between him and Marlow though

Mom

Marlow? as in Marlow from Boston?

why?

Shane

they're just full of them two flirting

as if they've been involved for years

some of them are as recent as last week though

Mom

and you didn't know about them?

Shane

no mom I did not know that my boyfriend was cheating on me

Mom

okay let's take a breather

did he tell you that he was cheating on you with Marlow?

Shane

no but he didn't deny any of the texts

he had the nerve to act confused about the situation

I don't know what I did wrong

Mom

you have done nothing wrong

if this is true, none of it is your fault

Shane

but it must be

I don't understand how he can go from moving to Ottawa for me, starting a charity and summer camp with me, talking about marriage and kids and everything, to sleeping with other people

I thought he loved me

Mom

I think he does still love you

even if he wasn't faithful, it doesn't deny the love he has for you

but his love also doesn't excuse his actions

Shane

what does it matter though if he is still with other people

mom it hurts

Mom

oh Shane sweetie

Shane

I haven't stopped crying

I feel like I can't breathe

Mom

it's going to be okay

I'm going to call you

Incoming call from Mom

Yuna Hollander

19 Sept 2020, 13:49

Yuna

Ilya Rozanov

Ilya

did you talk to Shane?

Yuna

how absolutely dare you message me

Ilya

what?

Yuna

the absolute nerve you have to message me about my son when you have treated him like this

Ilya

Yuna I do not know what you are talking about

Yuna

I just got off the phone with Shane as he was sobbing to me

Ilya

sobbing???

Yuna please I don't know what is happening

Yuna

do not text me

Ilya

Mrs Hollander

Read 14:01

Missed call from Ilya

Lily

19 Sept 2020, 14:03

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Missed call from Lily

Shane

stop calling me

Ilya

why?

Shane

because you've been fucking cheating on me that's why

I don't want to speak to you

Ilya

cheating???

Shane I have not cheated on you what the hell

is this about the texts with Cliff?

Shane you cannot be serious

Missed call from Lily

Ilya

Shane

Message not delivered

Hayden Pike

19 Sept 2020, 16:39

Hayden

hey Shane how you doing?

Shane

I don't know

I've blocked him for now

he kept calling and I couldn't stand seeing it come up on my screen

Hayden

that's good that's good

I know you think you love him and everything buddy, but in the end this will be a good thing

you're seeing him for what he actually is before you committed to marriage

Shane

I still love him

it's not like I can get rid of that

I just need to be away from him for a bit before I speak to him

Hayden

what you're actually going to hear him out?

Shane

I mean yeah

Hayden

wtf Shane no

Shane

what do you mean no?

Hayden

I mean no to talking to him

fuck him Shane, forget about him

move on, find someone who appreciates you

Shane

I can't just 'move on' Hayden

like I said, I still love him

even if we're still a secret, our lives are so intertwined I can't just cut him off

I don't want to cut him off

Hayden

you're too nice for your own good

you find out he's been cheating on you for your ENTIRE relationship and you still want to speak to him

just don't do anything irrational

Rose Landry

19 Sept 2020, 17:18

Rose

how are you doing?

19 Sept 2020, 19:25

Shane

sorry I've had my phone on DND for the past few hours

I feel numb I guess?

Rose

it's okay to feel like that

Shane

I just don't know what to do

I blocked his number earlier in the day, couldn't stomach seeing his contact come up on the screen

I miss him though

it's stupid

Rose

it's not stupid

you're allowed to miss him

you love him, and you two barely go an hour without speaking

Shane

Hayden said it's stupid that I'm considering talking to him

that I should just forget about him and move on

Rose

well that's silly

you love each other

cheating is inexcusable, but that doesn't get rid of your history and feelings

Shane

yeah that's my thinking too

I understand what Hayden is saying, and I know he isn't Ilya's biggest fan, but I still care about Ilya

I'm not going to just lose my feelings for him

Rose

not to change the subject but I just went back onto Twitter

have you looked at it recently?

Shane

oh god no why

what's happened now?

Rose

they're saying that his texts with his brother have been leaked too

I haven't read them but from the looks of people's responses they're not good

Shane

what???

Rose no

Read 19:37

Andrei Rozanov

2 Jan 2010, 03:02

Andrei

Только что посмотрел ваше послематчевое интервью, вы звучали как идиотjust watched your post-match interview, you sounded like an idiot

Ilya

Я просто говорю то, что хочет от меня тренерI just say what the coach wants me to

Andrei

чертовски жалкоfucking pathetic

Andrei Rozanov

21 Apr 2012, 11:17

Andrei

Почему ты, блять, не отвечаешь на телефонные звонки?why aren't you answering your fucking phone?

21 Apr 2012, 12:44

Ilya

я был на практикеI was in practice

что это такое?what is it?

Andrei

мне нужны деньгиI need money

Ilya

Я отправил тебе деньги на прошлой неделеI sent you money last week

Andrei

аренда дорогаяrent is expensive

Не у всех есть высокооплачиваемая работа, как у тебяnot everyone has a big paying job like you

Не то чтобы ты этого заслуживал, блятьnot that you fucking deserve it

Ilya

Сколько вам нужно?how much do you need?

Andrei

1 000 000 ₽

Ilya

черт возьмиfucking hell

Я пришлю, но перестань, блять, меня спрашиватьI'll send it over but stop fucking asking me

Andrei

иди на хуйgo fuck yourself

Andrei Rozanov

29 Sept 2014, 13:54

Andrei

папа снова упалpapa fell again

Ilya

он в порядке?is he okay?

Andrei

Нет, я дал ему стакан водки, чтобы отвлечь егоno, I gave him a glass of vodka to distract him

Ilya

Мне нужно кому-нибудь позвонить? Что-нибудь сделать?do you need me to call someone? do something?

Andrei

Что, блять, вы собираетесь делать из Америки?what the fuck are you going to do from America?

глупыйstupid

Ilya

Зачем ты мне тогда написала?why did you text me then?

Andrei

Значит, тебе теперь на папу наплевать?what so you don't care about papa now?

Ты становишься важной персоной в Америке, и вдруг твоя семья для тебя ничего не значит?you become a big shot in America and suddenly your family means nothing to you?

Ilya

Я не это имел в видthat's not what I meant

Andrei

черт возьми, что угодноfucking whatever

Я буду продолжать вкалывать, заботясь о папе и своей семье, пока ты будешь заниматься проституцией по всей Северной АмерикеI'll continue slaving away taking care of papa and my own family, while you whore your way through North America

Andrei Rozanov

1 Jun 2016, 08:11

Ilya

Можно мне прийти навестить Катю в день ее рождения?can I come see Katya for her birthday?

Andrei

удивлен, что ты вспомнилsurprised you remembered

просто отправь деньгиjust send over money

Ilya

я ужеI have already

Я хочу увидеть свою племянницуI want to see my niece

Andrei

Она даже не знает, кто тыshe doesn't even know who you are

Ilya

Вы же знаете, я здесь занятyou know I am busy here

Andrei

чертовы оправданияfucking excuses

просто отправьте больше денегjust send over more money

Никто на самом деле не хочет тебя видетьnobody wants to actually see you

Ты нам, блять, не нуженwe don't fucking need you

Мы просто позволили тебе остаться из жалостиwe just let you stay around for pity

Ты ведь никому больше не нравишьсяit's not like anyone else likes you

Ilya

Я перешлю ей ещё денегI'll send over more money for her

Read 08:26

Rose Landry

19 Sept 2020, 19:59

Shane

oh my god I just read them all

there's so many

Rose

I just read them too

his brother is so awful to him

Shane

I'm going to be sick

I knew his brother wasn't a good person, but I didn't realize how bad it was

plus that's all over text where they know people could see it, I don't even want to think about what happened over phone calls or in person

holy fuck I'm really going to be sick

Rose

oh Shane deep breaths honey

Shane

I don't know what to do

I love him so much and seeing those messages makes me want to run to him

but I also don't want to see his face or hear his voice right now

Rose

that's understandable

why don't you go take a shower, do some night yoga, give your brain some time to think and process

and then maybe you can decide what to do in the morning

Shane

okay that sounds doable

thank you Rose, I don't know what I'd do without you

Rose

❤️

David Hollander

20 Sept 2020, 07:14

David

good morning Ilya

Ilya

Hello Mr Hollander

David

I've told you before that David is fine

Ilya

yes sorry I know

just wasn't sure if that still applied right now

David

David is still okay

how did you sleep?

Ilya

was fine

David

you don't need to lie to me Ilya

Ilya

okay was not fine

was bad

spent most of the night awake staring at phone

David

I can imagine, Yuna told me that Shane blocked you

Ilya

I am sorry

I understand you are both very mad at me

I did not mean to hurt your son

David

I've seen the Tweets

be honest with me Ilya

did you cheat on him?

Ilya

No

I would never cheat on Shane

I love your son so much, with my whole heart

David

then what are all of those messages with Cliff Marlow?

Ilya

they are just jokes

we have spoken like that to each other since we met, it means nothing

we have never done anything together, never even thought about it

David

and that is the truth?

Ilya

yes, like I said they really are just jokes

I have no feelings for Marlow

David

then why are some of them recent? during the time you and Shane became serious?

Ilya

because I am an idiot

I never thought it would look like this, is just natural between me and Marlow

I have never seen it as romantic, so I never thought it might look that way

David

and that's the honest truth too?

Ilya

yes

David, I love your son with my entire heart

I love him so much that it physically hurts when we are apart

knowing that I caused him pain is killing me

I do not deserve him, I know this

but I am selfish and I love him

and I want to do whatever I need to so that I can have him

I just want the chance to explain myself to him

he won't answer my texts, my calls, he has blocked me

I have no options

I am completely alone here and I'm fucking miserable knowing I have hurt the only person who ever saw good in me

David

Ilya

there are so many people who see the good in you

I do, Yuna does, your teammates and coaches do, your friend Svetlana does, and so many other people I don't know

I think you get in such a big bubble of self-deprecation, that you don't let yourself see the goodness

Ilya

I don't think I deserve the goodness if I have hurt Shane

David

I'll message Shane, give me a minute

it's been a day, he's slept on it, he might be more willing to listen

he needed that time away, from his perspective, from everyone's perspective, it looked horrible

Ilya

I know

David

but maybe he is ready to hear the truth, to discuss what happened

Ilya

thank you David

you are a great father, Shane is lucky to have someone like you

David

you deserved that too Ilya, I'm sorry that you didn't get that comfort in childhood

and I'm sorry about your relationship with your brother, especially since it has gone public

Ilya

thank you

I did not have a good childhood, is no secret, made me very sad and angry person

but Shane makes the world so much brighter, makes life worth living

David

I think you two will be okay

Dad

20 Sept 2020, 07:33

Dad

morning kiddo

Shane

hi dad

Dad

how are you feeling?

Shane

I don't know

tired

Dad

I can imagine

I spoke to Ilya

Shane

oh

Dad

I think you two should maybe talk

Shane

I don't know dad

I'm still so angry at him

Dad

that's okay, you're allowed to be angry

but if you try to wait until it doesn't hurt, you'll never speak to him again, and I don't think you want that

Shane

no, I still love him

but I'm scared if we talk about it then we'll be over

Dad

it's good to be scared, it means you care about it

you're still young Shane, you have so much of your life to live

you don't need to forgive him, you don't need to stay with him, you can keep loving him or fall out of love or do whatever you want

but you need to speak to him

Shane

how did he seem?

Dad

sad, he misses you

I think the conversation with him will surprise you

Shane

okay, I'll go message him

thank you dad, I love you

Dad

I love you too kiddo

Lily

20 Sept 2020, 08:18

Shane

hi

Lily

Shane

hi

Shane

I'm sorry I blocked you

I needed to be alone

I needed to be away from you to think about it all

Lily

is okay, do not be sorry, I understand

Shane

can you just explain to me

and please just be honest

if you cheated on me, tell me, I don't want to have a relationship built on lies

Lily

I did not cheat on you

I never have and I never will

Shane

then what were all of those texts with Marlow?

Lily

they are just a stupid joke

Marlow and I have always texted each other like that

it means nothing

Shane

it doesn't look like nothing

Lily

I know I know

that's because no one was supposed to see them

it was just a silly thing we did

Shane

but you kept doing it while we were together

Lily

I know

fuck Shane I'm so sorry

I wasn't thinking, I never saw it the way everyone else has

it is just the way we have always spoke together, I never realized

Shane

that's all then?

it's just a stupid joke?

Lily

yes

I have never had sex with Marlow

I have never done anything with Marlow

I would never go with anyone but you

you are it for me Shane, you have always been it for me, you have ruined me

I do not even glance at other people

all I think about is your smile, your hair, your eyes, your laugh, your body, your hands, your everything

I fucking worship you

Shane

Ilya

Lily

it fucking kills me that I have put you in pain

I will never forgive myself for this

I am so sorry my love

I will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for this, if you let me

if you do not let me though, I will understand

getting to love you and being loved by you has been the greatest privilege I have ever had

even if it is over, this is so much more than I could have ever dreamed off

you let me meet amazing Yuna and David

you led me to Ottawa with the best teammates

which is reason I have little Anya

you have shown me happiness I have not known since my mama, happiness I did not think I would have again

thank you for all of those memories

Shane

baby

Lily

Shane

Shane

fucking hell

I need you to know that I love you

Lily

I love you too, so much

Shane

when I saw those texts, when I saw that they were still going on

Ilya I felt like I was going to die

Lily

I am so sorry

Shane

I know you are baby, but listen to me please

it wasn't even about Marlow

it was about the fact that we've talked about our future, we're doing the long game and making it work

and I felt stupid, like it was just some big joke for you

that I had made this all up in my head, that it doesn't mean as much to you as it does to me

Lily

oh Shane

is not true, this means everything to me

Shane

I went from thinking about what our kids and future home would be like, to having to figure out how I can live without you

Lily

were you planning to break up with me?

Shane

I don't know

I hadn't planned anything, but it was a consideration

I didn't want to break up with you, even thinking about being apart from you makes me want to scream

but I didn't know how I could continue to live if you had been with someone else

Lily

I will forever be sorry Shane

you do believe me when I say that it meant nothing, yes?

Shane

yeah, I do

it still hurts, but I believe you

Lily

thank you

I wish you had spoken to me about it, let me explain

Shane

I needed to be away from you, I couldn't have this conversation straight away

how would you have felt if you were in my position, if I was sexting someone else, even if they were just a friend

Lily

furious

I do not want to think about this

Shane

exactly

I know that part of this is just who you are, it's your personality, but it feels like you didn't even take into consideration my feelings

Lily

I agree, I did not, but I will not make this mistake again

I will be better

Shane

I don't like that

I don't want to you to feel like you need to work to have me, like you don't deserve this, like you don't deserve me

Lily

but is true, I don't

Shane

why?

Lily

it is obvious, Shane

you are sunshine, you are kind and smart and perfect, everyone loves you

I am rough and mean and lazy, everyone hates me

we are opposites, I do not want to ruin you

Shane

oh my god Ilya baby

I love you so much

you could never ruin me, never

I am who I am because of you, I have known you for over a decade, I practically grew up with you

I would not be who I am today if you weren't in my life

Lily

oh

Shane

Shane

and you are none of those things you said

you are so kind with the kids at camp, with Anya, with me, with my parents

sure you might be seen as 'mean' on the ice, but you never attack people for their insecurities, you are careful with what you say and how you say it

you are not lazy at all, I have no idea who told you that but they must've been an idiot because you are the hardest working person I know

and sure, some people might hate you, but so many people also love you

don't focus on the negatives when there are so many positives

you might not be perfect, no one is, but you are perfect for me

20 Sept 2020, 08:47

Shane

Ilya?

Lily

sorry sorry am back

Shane

you okay?

Lily

yes

no

messages made me cry, couldn't see screen to respond

Shane

I love you

Lily

I love you too

we are okay now, yes?

we are still together?

Shane

we are, if you still want to be

Lily

of course I do

I will never want to leave you

Shane

we can't do this again, though

I don't want you to stop talking to Marlow, but I need boundaries

or I just need to know that it means nothing

I'm really sorry, I know Marlow is your friend but I can't do this

Lily

do not be sorry

I will speak to Marlow, make different friendship

I will do anything for you

Shane

thank you

and I promise that if something bothers me, I'll come speak to you instead of running away

Lily

thank you

was hard not being able to speak to you, not knowing what was happening

I nearly texted Pike, would have been a new low for me

Shane

LOL I don't know how far you would've gotten with him

he isn't very happy

he didn't want me speaking to you again at all

Lily

that does not surprise me

Shane

Rose said I should take a break, walk away before speaking to you

but it was dad texting me that pushed me to speak to you

Lily

your father was very kind to me, despite everything

does your mother still hate me?

Shane

I don't think she ever hated you

she's probably still mad, but I'll speak to her

Lily

she told me to not text her again

Shane

yeah she was angry

you know what she's like though, she gets worked up easily

once I speak to her she'll calm down, you've always been her favorite anyways

Lily

I like your mother, is nice having someone like that in my life

Shane

she loves you Ilya

Lily

I hope so, I want things to go back to normal, was not fun having no one

Shane

having no one?

Lily

yes, having no one to speak about us to

the only people I can speak about you to, other than you, is your parents

or Pike or Rose, but they are not my friends

Shane

fuck, you had no one

I wouldn't talk to you and I took everyone away from you

Lily

is okay

I do not mind waiting for you

would do it for the rest of my life

Shane

shit

Ilya I'm so sorry

I have been such a terrible boyfriend

Lily

do not that say, is not true

Shane

it is true

I have my parents, Rose, Hayden, Jackie

and I haven't let you have anyone

Lily

I do not need anyone, I only need you

Shane

no you need more than me

I made you move to a new country, made you leave the team you signed with as a rookie, where you made so many friends

I made you give up Svetlana, and Russia

I made you join a shitty team and give up your chances of a Stanley cup, while I get to stay comfortable in Montreal and change nothing about my life

Lily

I was happy to give up Russia

I was happy to give up it all, if it meant I got you

Shane

but it shouldn't be like that

this should be a 50/50 relationship, yet I've done nothing to change my life and meet you halfway

fuck Ilya I'm so sorry

god I've been such an asshole

Lily

I survived

Shane

that isn't good enough

tell someone

tell Svetlana, or Marlow, or someone on the Ottawa team

have someone on your side, don't be lonely anymore

Lily

really?

Shane

yeah, really

Lily

thank you Shane

I think I will tell Svetlana, I have not spoken to her in a long time, miss her

she likes you too, always spoke about how hot you are

Shane

oh

Lily

well she is not wrong 😘

Shane

gross

I'm glad you have Svetlana, I'm glad you have someone connected to Russia

Lily

yes so am I

is nice to be able to speak Russian to someone, is nice to have good memories of Russia

Shane

shit I just remembered the texts between you and your brother

Ilya

Lily

do we need to talk about them?

Shane

we don't have to, but I think we should

Ilya he was so horrible to you

Lily

I have never been nice to him either

is a complicated relationship

we have always been like that, nothing new

Shane

it was still awful

I could barely stomach reading it, never mind actually being the one it was directed to

I hope you know none of the awful things he said about you is true

you deserved a better family than the one you got

Lily

maybe

but I have you, so it is okay

you are my family now, for as long as you will let me stick around

Shane

forever, you'll have me forever

you're in Ottawa just now, yeah?

Lily

yes, we leave for the road in three days

Shane

okay cool

I'm coming over

Lily

now?

Shane

yeah now

if that's okay?

Lily

of course is okay, I would never say no

you do not have practice?

Shane

there's practice tonight but it's optional, I'll just skip it

Lily

skip???

who are you and what have you done with my Shane

Shane

shut up

I just need to see you

need to feel you

Lily

ah, you need my dick 😏

Shane

well I'm not going to say no

but I more meant that I just need you

need to hold you, and kiss you, and see your smile

I just need to look at your face and know we're okay

Lily

oh

I need that too

I will be waiting for you

I love you

Shane

I love you too, so much

let's never fight again, let's just be happy forever

Lily

agreed

now stop texting me and start driving

Shane

will be there soon baby

Lily

❤️